Lyd-diaaa ;D

i mith you

2010-01-27T23:13:00.002+08:00

I hardly blog,well due to the fact that I am always entertained by my girlfriend not boyfriend and no,I am not a lesbian.I feel like I am dreaming now,I am happy,I am smiling. Its this feeling that I have been looking for all this time.Life is amazing.
now that graphic design presentation are over and stuff,I feel so free but then I heard rumors saying that O'level result is around the corner,well there's nothing for me to worry about since my feet are in MKJB,but then the paper itself cost my one month allowance which is fucked!I'm going to sit for my June and November,I don't know if i am ready.
all the painting stuff are done for now i guess,we will be having class and I am starting to love studying,its a good sign. my darling support me and ohh did I mention me,dating Haadi? :)
things are awesome,I just like it how we can talk about every little things on earth. He might not be like others which is a little frustrating but well,time is important
today,we have the hijrah thingy talk in the hall which I fall asleep but then it all went well,talking with my girls all the time till the BKP get mad -.- well,mouth are meant to be use for talking -.-"

I am sleepy already,Tired cause I slept late lastnight,well due to the big fight I had with Haadi =_______="
after college,me and girlfriend,Meichen went shopping with mummy for some grocerries and then went to town for the some stuff.It was awesome cause WE ARE AWESOME. then hang around with Meichen for a while and then she went home to study :D I am sooo tired and worn out and I can't wait for something.Its been few weeks already :'( :'( I MISS IT SO MUCH!

okay,I will try real hard to update this blog although no one will be reading it.sukati ku :D

i want it all again

2010-01-24T08:01:00.002+08:00

I just woke up,like around 7ish in the morning,well I fell asleep around 8ish lastnight then my sis and a friend text me on the phone,i get to reply only ONE message cause I was tired to the core,I got into an accident,not car accident though.this was just a mini accident. we have the whole CITD department being paint and change,so we guys are told to paint the multimedia lab yesterday,not all of us did the painting stuff,only few,less than 15 it is. I went and paint around the corner but then there were wire and stuff so I have to arrange the wiring and make sure it doesn't get painted,while fixing the wire,the ceiling fall to my head and yes IT HURTS,TO THE CORE,TO THE SPINE! there were only 3 person there including me,but then the others came in just at the right time and we went to find our instructor,she was worry but then I was fine at the first place but then slowly I started to have headache and stuff which means I MUST REST. My head hurts to the core,I told my parents but then no reaction.HAHA, I think I am fine now,yeah I think. what surprise me the most is that,its been more than 12 hours he hasn't text me.weird~ but then I am getting use to it so yeah.

will update more soon,i am gonna rush on to my reports and stuff now

dont get fucked real hard little girl

2010-01-23T01:41:00.002+08:00

ohh well,I was jobless and I decide to do a little blog hoping or whatever you call it..so this is what i wanna blog about but before that SIAPA TERMAKAN CILI TERASA PADASNYA OKAY..I DONT GIVE A FUCK!

so..if you guys been reading my blog,you should have seen about me,being so patient on those little whores. yes,THOSE UGLY WHORES who cam-whore alot without realizing that they are actually ugly to the core.well,for 2009,I have let them SHIT all they want,TALK BEHIND ME all they want,BULLY all they want but come have a real taste of LYDIA in 2010 :)

you know how some people LOVE to swear,well an example will be me.I SWEAR but the thing is,I SWEAR at the right time,I might swear early in the morning but then yeah,I dont swear every morning like how your ANNOYING friend does okay :D
I might not be as rich as YOU all where you can hangout and waste all your money but one thing for sure is AKU LAWA AND KAMU BIDA,bukan aku mau perasaan but then yeah its the truth,go ask the public :)
OHH AND YES,,THE MOST IMPORTANT PART IS THAT "EVEN IF AKU MAU UCAP OR SINDIR..AKU DAPAN-DAPAN ..HAHHA BIDA MAIN UCAP BLKG I.E. UCAP DI FACEBOOK OR BLOG" ahahhaha

and ohh another thing is "DONT GO FUCKING-FUCKING SWEAR TO ME OR ANY OF MY GIRLS OR I GET YOU FUCK REAL HARD"

Jangankan silap urang lain tau but nda tau silap sendiri
CERAMIN TAH DIRI ATU DULU BEFORE UCAP ME OR MY GIRLS OKAY ;D

HAHA AND NOW..U CAN MAYBE GO KISS MY ASS OR SUCK MY BALLS,YEAH IMAGINARY BALLS..perhaps u love kissing fist and tasting bitch slap more

GO FUCK YOUR MOMMA AND DIE :D

now you know who is the bitch,BITCH!

baby,feel my heartbeat.

2010-01-18T22:08:00.002+08:00

today was erm,one word,BORING. as usual,hang around with my girls, gossip with my girlfriend.I had the most amazing breakfast of all!my phone was so silent the whole day,I didn't silent my phone when I was in the class,it just didn't ring! software presentation is SOON!I am scared cause I don't think I have done enough preparation.I must do well this time :) maybe this week or next week,I am doing a photoshoot for my girlfriend,and her boyfriend Wan.can't wait to see the amazing output!I am not saying that I am a pro or what,I am not using Pro camera,just a powershot,as long as I have photoshop,I should be awesome then. I was a little moody today,cause I felt ditched!My mind is complicated.If anyone has gone through my playlist lately,its mostly different genre of songs I used to listen to already.after that party,everything is house,tranz and stuff here in my laptop! well,I have nothing intresting to update about though but whatever it is I am looking forward to FEBRUARY cause its Chinese New Year,Valentine days :D but then the sad part is,I am single for valentine maybe. -.-" i want flowers!!! ahh,I am very glad that my blog is not that exposed :8),someone doesn't know that this stuff exist! HAHAHA,let it be then..I am not ready for anything yet!I am still looking for my pic,from the past till now..I wanna know how horrible was/am I!

>.<

everytime

2010-01-17T22:50:00.002+08:00

I have been busy lately,with a little problems,well its all done now and i hope i made the right decision. I have one more reports on graphic design and another presentation,after that,test 2 then life will be more awesome!as a promise to mallie,I will keep on updating this boring blog of mine. tomorrow is Monday,I HATE MONDAY cause I will have 2 hours of maths which is BORING! saturday was AWESOME cause we have no class at all,I was feeling a little cranky,now,I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHO THEY ARE,I realise how stupid was I before when I actually let them bitch about me,now Imma show em' who is the bitch now!so much thinking need to be done to complete this report.PFFFUCT!

I feel like posting pictures.i don't know..this dude..where is he?!??!??!?BATAH! :(

I LOVE SATURDAY NIGHT for so many reason
I MISS...................................................................................

my brain is just too sexy

2010-01-12T21:35:00.002+08:00

i haven't been blogging lately,its not that i don't want to,I am just too busy with problems and also school works,I am glad that the assignments are all over though I have a feeling that I will fail ICS again -.-" its okay,I tried,the question are too tough!my everyday after school hours are to be filled with gossips and updates,that is like a total must,my phone is dead,not that its broken into pieces but just it wouldn't ring,screw it! for all this shit that had happened to me,I haven't get to sleep properly,Last night,I only had 3 hours of freaking sleep,and this reminds me that I haven't study for my technical description test tomorrow.damn it! I don't know what to do,I don't know which step to take next,I don't know if the path that I am walking is right or wrong,I just wanted to stop but I don't wanna harm and hurt anyone.If I made a mistake,I will hurt more people,I had already hurt Zee,like real bad..I am very sorry for what I had done,but I believe that's the best for me and him.

I might close down this blog,I might leave it dead,I might update it everyday.I just don't know

30.03.08

2010-01-10T19:39:00.002+08:00

Today.
I realise no others can make me happy except for you
I realise although other people pops out my life,at the end of the day..all i want is yo
I realise I still love you although I say I don't
I still love you even if we break up
I still love you even if it hurts
I realise, you are the one I want everyday
I realise, I suck at loving people
I suck in a realtionship
I realise, even if I love you that much,I can't be with you
I learn that you are the best for me,you always want me to put my studies first
I realise you have been the best of all

I realise that I am stupid

its getting late but i don't mind

2010-01-09T17:27:00.002+08:00

its been a long time since I blogged,this week has been the most restless week for me as I only got 4 hours of sleep per day because i need to complete most of my homework,assignments and I have reports piling on my desk,2010 hasn't been really nice for me so far,i screwed up in a relationship again,its just the matter of trust and we both thinking to negative. today has actually been the worst day of the week,someone was being so selfish,wait till next time,i will do my revenge!don't come after me when you guys need my help,I wont give a fuck! I been sick since last year,the coughing wont leave me alone,infact its getting worst.I actually thought of closing down this blog and start making a new one,but i don't know.I have been busy lately,and yes I am still gonna private my blog,I will do them when I am free cause I have stuff to do after this.I might be going to the prom for this 6 Feb as some people did ask me,and Jick is gonna perform so yeah!
i don't know what is going on my mind and i don't know what to do.i think i am actually depressed.no i am not depressed because i broke up with zee,i am depressed cause i actually think i don't know whats the meaning of life is..

FML

its a good start.

2010-01-04T18:13:00.002+08:00

so everyone,how was your first day of school?mine was awesome of course.despite the Monday blues,everything was okay.as usual we started off with maths which i wasn't concentrating at all cause I was feeling really cranky!I had a nice lunch which is nasi lemak but received few text messages with pissed me off,It had actually got me at my boiling point but I was telling myself that it wasn't worth it being angry and spoiled my own day for someone who doesn't trust me so yeah i might as well just buzz off and take good care of my health which I know I am going to be sick anytime,I have been coughing and sneezing for so long already.its been two nights since I have been drowning myself with well whatelse but assignment.luckily I did ask some friends about it if not,I think I am the one dying today.I have to redo most of my SA,I got my softcopy for IPG assignment 1 so I guess I will be doing them soon since the due date is Saturday.I have so much to do yet so little time.I think sooner or later,I will be off from love games,I had enough shits already.I don't need any shits coming in me,beside why should I be the one who keep the relationship whereas He didn't trust me,I don't feel like explaning anything to him anymore,so I am telling him whatever that he got in his mind,he just follow it.I can't be bothered to know and explain about it.ohh well,lets just not talk about that already.
I just have to make sure I got enough rest and finish my assignments by tonight

and the best part about today is...

MY LITTLE ANGEL,DARYL STARTED SCHOOL TODAY,he must be awesome
he cried cause he felt down at the playground..ahh I love that little boy to bits :D

it should be a no-no next time

2010-01-03T12:26:00.002+08:00

I just woke up and I feel like blogging.I was tired to the core last night,went home,talked to my family,eat then sleep.Yesterday was erm,not like what I had expected actually,but its okay as long as pey is happy then its okay,I was lucky for having zee by myside the whole time texting me just to make sure I am okay and he was there to entertained me though he did pissed me off for a minute but we are cool,the best part was that he was there the whole time for me,I rather not talk about anything as I wasn't that you know bla bla bla whatever shit,whatever it is,yesterday was not my day,the time when I don't feel good,I just wanna go home,I am actually glad that my mum did call and ask if I wanted to go home,that trully saves my life and my night.whatever it is.
I am tired now and I think its time for me to give ny boyfriend a wake-up call and this afternoon,prolly drowning myself with assignments..OMG >.<

and yes,for this 2010,I MIGHT private my blog :D digg that'
i don't give a fuck on anyone anymore afterall,they are treating you as a toy,they actually find you when they can't be or get help from their friends.so why bother giving a fuck on people like that,i know i dont

i could sing it out loud,just for you.

2010-01-02T02:48:00.003+08:00

Its new year again,I am actually ~~sad~~,I hope this is gonna be a good year for me,but seems like I need to keep myself positive and of course be patience most of the time and let who else but God do his job on the karma thingy,for everyone that had talked about me,criticize me, teased me, looked down on me.God is going to do his job one day.I am just sad,sometimes,all I want is just someone out there who is going to understand all my needs and wants,making me the princess of his life and fulfill all my wishes. I just hate what and how the fuck i am feeling now,jealousy kills.screw it!sometimes the feeling of being in love last just for one minute then its gone for the rest of the week and come back only after weeks and weeks of pain.there are actually so many shits that is running in my mind like why this and why that,some even make me wanna cry,but thinking back,I just don't want to be a weak girl,crying and let pain runs in my blood.why should i be so stupid,crying about something/someone who actually doesn't ~~appreciate~~ me and more importantly,TRUST me.I am okay if I have no one to hold on to,No one to listen to me when I am way down to heaven,I know life has its ups and downs,all I need is strength to go through it,I know I can do it,even just all by myself,I have heard about people who actually hate me,some are actually close to me,running the same blood as me,but I am all cool.I think there are much better things in life but I am just not there yet,maybe close.I might not be pretty with and without make ups on,but I also believe that God will have what it takes to repay everything for what I did to people and what people did to me.

For this fantastic and hopefully awesome year I had resolutions in my mind

-study hard and scores distinctions and make mum and dad proud of me
-obviously,pass my PND :D
-hold on to no one
-learn to make wiser decision
-live for myself,comfy with myself
-finish all my assignments before its dateline (hopefully :s)
-HAD A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY as I my 2 last birhdays was so hmmph,i don't know :[ and don't wanna talk about it :')
-spend more time with my books
-resit my o'levels again.. (so?)
-no more latenight calls,sleep late
-party less =.="
-save my whole year allowance :D
-buy one of my wish-list items
-get into NO trouble
-stay out of dramas
-stay out of pain
-happy always :)
-exercise more

i was wondering if its only possible for me to stay out of love starting from this year until I finish school so I wont get ~~hurt~~ anymore. FML~~!i am hurt enough already today.~~

good day people. :D

when will you get a fucking life?

2009-12-31T17:23:00.002+08:00

Its almost new year and they are still people who just can't stop kissing my ass.ahh why don
t you go fuck yourself and die? my Godness,just because you dislike that particular someone,you don't need to bitchtalk about him/her as if he/she is a trash and the fact that I am being friend with that particular person,YOU DON'T NEED TO BITCHTALK about me too.you guys are not perfect anywhere,almost married,married and still FUCKING depends on your parents,even uglier,you guys can be said independent,some even have own family,some are 20+ and you still wanna fucking depends and ask money from your parents?do you even know how to write and spell the word malu?stupid human,kamu punya mulut atu,kalah-kalahan bau sampah atu,ucap tia urg,gara-gara pasal mulut kamu atu,aku saja kena salahkan,yatah pikiran kamu atu buduh,utak nda dapat luaskan,YATAH KAWIN AWAL!sial bnr.laknat sial..umur brapa sdh msh mcm apa,sudah susah bru kan cari kawan,nda tau creta bnr mcm CNN mulutnya cereta arah urg! cubatah.. liat dulu sendiri atu.cemana hidup mu pukima!lau jealous cakap jealous,aku tau lah kamu atu nda buleh pakai luan sexy,kan belawa pun susah.MINTA DUIT INDUNG,umur BERAPA!so before kamu ucap-ucap aku atu liat and siasat dulu hal banar,kamu tah MANUSIA YANG PALING MEMALUKAN.

ignore the post above,I was just letting my anger out. those pathetic people,*sigh
this is going to be my last post for 2009, I am going to parties tonight,2 parties :D
2009 is going to end in less than 12 hours,there are so many stuff to be remembered

In 2009 :-

-I quit high school earlier then helped my auntie with her tutor
-start to earn my own money
-got accepted into college
-start to understand how hard is it to work a month just for money!
-realise who are true friends and who are those LOW LIFER USING ME ;D
-realise the world doesn't revolves around me
-make more new friends
-gain lot of weight
-spend LESS time being inlove and more time hurt =.="
-spend alot
-enjoyed life to bits

I have a feeling that 2010 goona be a hit!yknw i am going to be 18

I guess they made a perfect couple

2009-12-31T01:20:00.001+08:00

a must watch,i guess everyone will die for a boyfriend and girlfriend like that,I know I would

a twenty tag

2009-12-31T00:43:00.002+08:00

things you cannot leave your house without?
-clothes :p flats or sometime my heels and also sometime my make up if i am going out,"out"

favorite brand of make up?
-face shop,elianto,silky girl and those you can find in ~~Brunei~~

favorite flower?
-roses

favorite clothing store?
-NICHIII, pink pussy cat, forever 21, topshop and yeah none of them are in Brunei,haven't been to forever 21 and topshop but seen them online and I am so gonna hit the store one day,I am not trying to be a showoff but most of my clothes are not from Brunei cause its hard to find pretty and cheap here.

favorite perfume?
for me,I dont like expensive perfumes so I use silky girl which cost about 10+ :D

Do you make good grades?
-well I do but not that good,I take my studies seriously although I ditched my assignments.

Favorite colors?
-pink,blue,grey,orange,purple,silver and gold :D

Do u drink energy drink?
-yeap

Do you drink juice?
-yeah,love em'

Do you like swimming?
-LOVE IT!

Do you eat fries with forks?
-Nope

favorite moisturizer?
-Nivea :D

Do you wanna get married someday?
-doubt that =/

Do you get mad easily?
-yeah =.=

Are you into ghost hunting?
-hell yeah :D

a right time

2009-12-30T20:20:00.002+08:00

I feel like blogging,maybe this will be the last post for 2009,I have couples of resolution in my mind,I know there are more.soon,school is going to reopen,gosh,the first week is gonna be freaking busy for me since I know I will still be working my ass off for all my assignments,ICS is really hard and I haven't done anything.I just don't understand them.
yesterday,I got a new hair-cut,will post pictures of my new hair soon,I love it cause yknw,My hair-dresser is superb!She told me not to keep my hair long as I would look ~~horrible~~,she thinks I am good with short hair,so as my parents so yeah.I am glad that I am all set for Chinese New year,the only thing to do before CNY is my hair all the shopping are DONE,i got only heels for CNY about six of them,I am very satisfy I must say.
I have beauty plans for me myself for CNY,will book my darling,Meichen cause I think we might go to spa together. still under planning though,Now I find a good reason for saving my allowance!this is going to be a busy week for me,I am fully booked till Sunday.Thursday by my parents,Friday by my darling,Meichen,Saturday by my bitches, and sunday by my ~~fucking assignment~~ but still FML for having this cough and flu!
through out this few days,yesterday was GREAT :D
for the end of 2009,I have faces of all my favourite and memories that I wish to treasure forever on my bedroom wall.

I thank god for everything HE gave :D

for the first time

2009-12-30T15:54:00.003+08:00

With all my heart, and all my soul, I will love you till the winds don't blow. Until the oceans turn to stone, my love is yours and yours alone. My love is forever, until forever's gone.-Kenny Rogers

together forever,never apart.Maybe in distance but never at heart.Seduce my mind and you can have my body, find my soul and I'm yours forever.

I don't know when will you read this but still,I love you and Happy 21st Monthsarry babyboy.ILOVEYOU ~~although you forget about this important day~~

a drummer gone again.

2009-12-29T19:54:00.003+08:00

everyone must have known that one of the world top 10 drummers have passed away yesterday,Its a very sad news,this year,we had lots alot of great artist.James Owen Sullvian,better known as The Rev was one of the world top 10 drummers. I bet everyone is very sad to realize that we have lost him already. I should miss the beat of his drums.

RIP The Rev,May God bless your soul.you will be remembered always :')

pull me through.

2009-12-28T16:53:00.004+08:00

I am back from my vacation!KK was awesome,there were around 29 of us. the traffic was pack,all the malls there were full!last minute Christmas shopping,first day we went to mount Kinabalu and stay somewhere near there at a very ~~HORRIBLE~~ cabin cause its ~~dirty~~ and its freazing.we had BBQ on the first night. the next day,we went back to the city and stayed at radiant tower,shopped till I drop for the next 3 days at 1 borneo,centrepoint,karamunsing and city mall and we extended our holiday and stayed for another day,was supposed to shopped around warisan square but plan changed due to some reasons which I wont blog about but yeah i guess I will complained about it to few people,so we went to a ~~fucking~~ hash instead,I am not saying that I am against hashing but SOME people shall understand that this is a FAMILY trip not a fucking hashing trip! some people just don't understand.It really pissed me off when I knew that we are all going to trip just because ONE specific person would like to go to the hash,stupid right?so the last night at KK,we stayed at a so-call resort which looks like a JUNGLE to me,the toilet is so effing dirty, the water is so effing cold,the food was horrible, the place it self is horrible.I can't even smile there the whole evening until the night when there was a hash party then things are better.I will upload few pictures of the trip here after I resize them. I love all the sales there,I think I almost buy the whole shop down!HAHA!I guess the traffic yesterday was better,I might head off to KK again during ~~March~~ or maybe KL and Penang,still not sure. I havent unpack my lugage and yeah my assignments,GOSH!

*************
When I reached Brunei yesterday,I received a text from Mallie.
to my surprise,SOMEONE was bitching about me while we all were in vacation.
since I can't tag in her cb cause she is a SCARYCAT and very scared that her family will know about her DIRTY little secrets so i think I will just blog about it :) well little ugly dirty girl,IF you have a fucking problem why don't you come out and we will talk about it OR ARE YOU SCARED?ohh god,I felt super sorry for you,you are ugly and you are jealous of me.easy and enough said,if you weren't jealous of me why would you keep talking about me. I know you are ugly and I am glad that God gives me this face,I might gave little pimples but that's natural okay,at least I DONT LOOK LIKE A MAN!

p/s AT LEAST AKU INDA PERASAAN LADY GAGA AND PUT HER LAST NAME ON MY NAME.KESIAN DEH LOE.although i am her fans,but i don't spend 1/2 of my time blogging about me being a super fan of hers.HAHAH kesian kau ane.are you seriously that pathetic sampai kan blog pasal lady gaga and PERASAAN THAT YOU ARE HER SIS?that you have to put your last name about her?HAHAHAHAH sandi.mua macam buret itik

in a blink of an eye,you are gone forever.

2009-12-22T16:41:00.002+08:00

This will be my last post for today. tomorrow I will be off,I wont private my blog,I don't care if anyone wanna spam my blog or whatever.I don't give a fuck!I haven't pack and I am leaving in less than 24 hours.during the last midnight,My darlings came over as usual,we painted each other nails and yeah talk,I went to bed around 4+,zee called me on the phone,talked and yeahh. I was supposed to wake up at 9 in the morning cause I wanna collect my IC,I actually did woke up at 9 but I went back to bed,around 11,I guess zee did message me,I did wake up and read em' but I fell asleep again and end up waking at 1+. my angels came here since the princess will be coming with us to the vacation,I will upload pictures and upload pictures if possible.I hope i wont be sick :(

bye.

MERRY advanced CHRISTMAS PEOPLE
hohoho

a summer kiss

2009-12-20T16:41:00.004+08:00

I just feel like blogging this

Roses are RED
Violets are BLUE
FUCK YOU WHORE

edited.
wake up pretty early today although slept pretty later,my early is 11a.m or about it,I didn't did lots of thing though,just sitting around,text message with him for a while then I did my assignment which I stuck half-way cause my total exam mark just wont show although I used to same coding with the assignment mark park!ah,screw it!My parents were not home the whole afternoon and they came home late evening,ordered pizza. My programing fucked my mind up and I just wish that some people understand that finishing up those assignment is not easy,I need time,I don't need anyone, ANYONE,I repeat,to tell me,to MAKE me,to FORCE me to do my assignment, I will do it when I feel like doing them,when someone keep pushing me,it will only make me ~~pissed off~~.now,I am MOODY. Thanks to my boredom and people who KEEP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO!

we are not close to awesome,cause we already are

2009-12-20T02:45:00.002+08:00

its 2+ in the morning now and I can't sleep,well not that I can't really sleep.I just wanna relax for a while after chocking on pringles. I went online after I finished my assignment then Mallie text me and asked me about something,apparently somebody actually re-blog what i blog about.omg haven't anyone taught you about privacy or you just don't know the meaning of respect or something close to it?whatever it is,please don't repost what I post and delete it,That proves that you are a scary cat,and one more important craps,when you are not friends with me,please jangan asi-asi at my circles. less on bullshits.
so,I was so happy just now,well of course because of SOMETHING,which I wont and will never blog about until its the right time. I text meichen as soon as I saw that,I asked her to come to my place cause I know she is somewhere around the neighborhood so she came 5 minutes after that then we dropped jaw after we saw that "thing",we talked till around 2 and she went home. the dear gamers came and then I came upstairs and here I am.I am leaving the country soon,so as Mallie. (:

just walk alone on the side walk

2009-12-19T20:14:00.002+08:00

the whole day,I did my assignment,and I finally finish my ugama assignment,why am I bragging about it?its cause I never thought that I would finish it.it took me about 3 hours to do it!I feel good then,but I guess most of my friends have finish theirs too. Lee came over around 2 and we did the ugama,so yeah 1 down 3 to go! I will do assignments again tomorrow,can't believe that 2009 is coming to an end,a tough year,I pray for my own luck for 2010,Its gonna be a blast as there are less shits in life,I don't care if I have limited friends as long as they are not fake and they don't give me trouble and mess to clean. few more days,I am going,I might bring my laptop with me so that I can play sims3 or maybe send it to hospital,the other day my parents got me a 500G hardisk so I guess my think is safe. for the psast few days,I got 2 new shoes,two pairs of crocs,yes,cros is my favourite. I have did alot of surfings and fount lots of interesting website like,MLIA,FML,blog secret,we heart it and so on.I don't know if I wanna tuck in early tonight.My shoulder hurts.I am so freaking bored.what a Saturday night.lifeless me.I wonder if they are gonna make a big mess here AGAIN tonight.

on top of all,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ONE OF MY CIRCLES,FIONA ^.^
Her jokes never fail to make me laugh my ass off.

beach party

2009-12-19T13:53:00.003+08:00

a skylit drive!!!

love birds

Bagai sampah di pandangan gwe.

2009-12-19T02:19:00.002+08:00

This is going to be a long and interesting post.Okay.So i got a few things to blog about.As a promise to my darlings,mallie and meichen,i am gonna post it.But,first,i would like to apologize to meichen for not taking her advice,sorry sai.I know you lav me.Okay,so some readers should have heart about shit that happened,and oh,m not gonna say NO OF FENCE HERE,fuck it,i dont freaking care pun.So what i am on mallie's side,i am on her side because i am not heartless,and because i have brain to think,i am not saying you dont have a brain,you are just not using it!I am always on people's side,who ever is right!I know what is right and what is wrong!I dont fucking care what you gonna tell people about me or anything.You think you save my ass huh?Tell lah,you think i fucking scared is it,I have people to prove that i am not a liar,beside,i am not the one yang mengancang di msn but gagar dapan2!Igo on tell mallie,ummie and sab i bitched about them,i told them already and i said sorry pun sudah,you are thinking why did i change?I just change,to someone who knows how to think!I remember sab once told me 'dont think the world revolves around u',i learn from my mistake,i learn to think about people's feeling,more important,I LEARN TO THINK BEFORE I TALK!if you dont wanna think then dont talk.Go on shit about me after this.I dont friggin care.Dusa nanti tanggung sendiri. Think about my life and then yours,you are rich,yes,the WHOLE BRUNEI tau,but THE WHOLE WORLD PUN TAU,ITS your parents yang kaya not you AND as for me,i have my own money from school,although inda seberapa allowanceku,but still I work for it.Pikir saja kau sana dang!Mun aku,malu pulang ku tue,lakat saja utak ato rah standard yang sama.And you know what,YOU ARE ONE IN THE MILLION,there's no others like you,you are special.Yknw why,because everyone in this world know how to think about other people's feeling!I know lots of people hates me,but you should think about yourself!Kau ato kaya,bali tah cramin ato and ceramin diri okay!!Any untrue stories i heard about me,you gonna be dead,TRY ME!pikir saja kau sana,pls jgn jua luan kasar sama my friends,you wont love it when they are at boiling point!And pls lah,cursing us doesn't make you cool.Jangan luan ikut emosi.Relax,kami cool,that is why kami awesome!!!!at fucking least,we have life,we don't spend about 99.9% of our time blogging shits!please lah hah~mana saja kau lah hah..kalau kau kan mentle..go ahead..macam WIND kami buat ah kata-kata mu atu!!!

and ane lagi...
ummie you can go suck dick?please..betutur atu please bisai2 deh,nanti pedah2 kena bitch slap!!!!PIKIR SAJA KAU SANA!

and psl mallie lagi..ane yang aku nda suka
MALLIE ITAM?biar tia wah.kejadian tuham bah tue!!!mun sudah tuhan lahirkan ea mcam atu,at least mallie still remembers that GOD IS THE GREATEST OKAY!LEB?please jangan fitnah urang,,sesungguhnya MENFITNAH ITU LEBIH KEJAM DARI MEMBUNUH..lau itam pun ADA MASALAH SAMA KAU? please..at least EA NDA DERHAKA RH PARENTSNYA!
i am not saying kau derhaka unless u assume u are :)

xoxo
no time for shittos

"may mallie be your new bff"
"SHE IS!!!SOOOO?"-LYDIA WEE!

OUTdated

2009-12-18T12:41:00.004+08:00

girlfriend ;D

our love mustard

believe it or not,I COOK!

and its 2+ in the midnight,not afternoon.

our movie nights till 4 morning.

Just a little more

2009-12-18T01:24:00.006+08:00

Before i actually go to sleep,i would love to blog few craps here. I have someone back.Muhamad Razee,yes we are back.I guess he just stole my heart back.I was all fucked up just now.Mallie,i am sorry that i can't help.I will try my best to make you both become one again.I love seeing you and muiz together. I was mad about few things though but its okay.I will post pictures,i promise.
Z,iloveyou.Nyte sweetypie
mallie,be strong.Karma happens

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOABDUL HASSIF HANIF ;D
have a blast..eh I know you do have fun sama kami :D

Just a little more

2009-12-18T01:24:00.003+08:00

Just a little more

2009-12-18T01:24:00.001+08:00

take note!

2009-12-17T17:50:00.004+08:00

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when you not by my side

2009-12-16T15:20:00.003+08:00

Hello sir,I surrender

I am to update again,I wanted to upload pictures but then My brother's friend borrowed my laptop so plan change,later maybe.Its 3 pm now and yes,I still haven't shower and so on.I received a very hurtful text message which I wont reply,waste of credit and knowing me, I hate explaining to people who never try to understand me.I was awake when he text me around 3 in the morning,I received miss-call but in this boiling point, I wont give a fuck on anything.I don't think that I am wrong. everything happens for a reason. so what if the one I be friend with is such an ass,as long as he has not been such an ass to me,then I wont have a fucking problem with him.just because he is an ass out there,it doesn't mean that he is an as towards me. everything that will happen in the future,I will be there to take all the pain!

i guess i am done here

pain behind those smile

2009-12-16T01:57:00.002+08:00

I am so FRUSTRATED now. why?i just don't understand WHY,why can't you just understand and AT LEAST BE IN MY SHOE FOR A SECOND! if only you know how things revolves around in MY world, try understand me and my way of life. loving me doesn't mean you have to give me everything I want.what I really want is your understand,your tolerance and YOUR TRUST!those are the thing that can make me happy!I think I have enough shit given by all my dear haters out there,I actually do know that I have more haters than friends,the best thing I love about me myself is that I don't really give a fuck on what they actually shit about me!I am sick of all this already,less on this more on my boring day.
so as always I will wake up in the noon and my parents will be off to work,my sis and I are home,doing nothing,then mum came home around 1 and Racheal follow her out. Well Zee get to see me then he thinks that I am gaining weight,I had fun with him the whole afternoon until night where he actually disappoint me.I was busy with my movie whole night and yeah,my cafe and my computer.I will be VERY busy on Friday from morning till afternooon,I am only hoping that the party on the 18th will go on smoothly as it was very hard for me to contact them,only via facebook and msn and also through others.*DEEP SIGH.

i wanna send picture from my phone to here then I will upload them.

just like sky and stars

2009-12-15T04:38:00.002+08:00

nice?i hope he likes it (;
I am off to bed now,I am so tired,I will edit this post with what i did just now.

hint 1-soon,we will be back as one. <3

now and forever

2009-12-14T18:00:00.002+08:00

lazy Monday everyone?my head keep on taking me to a roller coaster ride from the moment I woke up,I couldn't sleep nicely.Love miss-called me at 7 in the morning which I was still sleeping soundly I guess,sorry lavs! since He is doing his prayer now,I might as well blog. I was pretty pissed off at a girl,She is my bro's friend whom I actually hate to bits! she always bring her friends to my house,she make lots and lots of noise at my house on every saturday mid-night,she love to scream at mid-night disturbing my beauty sleep,she is just ANNOYING,i hate her and everything about her. She brought her friends here,to my place on most Saturday nights,I don't mind if they wanna have a little fun but the fun she is having is over the boundary line,don't she realize that I have neighbors too? People can actually heard us,Its so hard for us to sleep.They act like they don't have other place to hang out rather than our house,I don't mind having them here as long as they keep their voices down and DON'T FINISH MY FOOD!making so much noice that I can't even fucking sleep!damn,i hate it!very annoying,another time then SHE will see the worst of me!

i lost my memory card ):

i swear i can kill 3 tigers

2009-12-13T21:20:00.004+08:00

i am tired to the core,my tiredness always make me moody and bitchy! I don't even wanna smile,its been forever since I feel this ugly and dull!I am tired,I said that like a million times already!I can't stand my eyes and everything,all I want was a little good night sleep which I don't think I can cause this will be a busy week cause reunion is this Friday. I really hate what am I feeling now, I think I am mean,wait,I don't "think" so,cause I know so. I don't know what I want and what I need. There are lots of questions in mind.

last month,i had this really weird thing going on with a friend of mine,It wasn't real.I swear to god and on my grandma's grave.It wasn't real,everything was fake,my friends were all freaked out,I received texts in msn saying "Lydia..are you serious?you and him" "why?him" "you fucking kidding right" "wtf lyd..HIM"? but i didn't reply any of those, cause I don't think I need to explain anything to anyone out there,till then,I heard GOSSIPS,yes,PEOPLE GOSSIPING ABOUT ME HAVING LITTLE SOMETHING WITH HIM!okay so here's what I AM GOING TO SAY FOR ONCE and yes STOP GIVING ME SHITS AFTER THIS,i don't need any shits from you lifeless little rats out there.IT WAS JUST A JOKE PEOPLE,A JOKE and I don't think there's anything to do with you guys so I don't see a right for you people to shit about us,and after posting HIM here,i refer to HIM,you have no idea who HIM is so DONT NEED TO GUESS PEOPLE,just let HIM BE HIM,he don't need a name cause it could be any random guy,so yeah you guys can SHUT THE FUCK UP now I suppose.don't you have problems in your life too?

I just git back from Miri like erm 3 hours back,I am exhausted,worn out,tired what else?the best part was of course the pool,esp for me who actually love swimming so much,it was awesome. I didn't bought lots of stuff,just few nail polish from elianto and knick-knacks :p i went to rage and those TEEN sales girls were looking at me like some kind of crap,please,I DON'T WORK IN SHOP like you girls,so don't look at me like "that".

so tomorrow is going to be another Monday,so yeah I will add in a little more thing to my program then email my coding to my friend and let him check.then I will do the reports,hopefully I will finish them before I left Brunei.I keep on wondering,How will I look with long hair,straight not curly though.

will upload pictures soon,I am busy with cafe world :p

you say?

2009-12-11T21:18:00.002+08:00

i just got back from a party and I am tired to to the core. my eyes are so damn heavy and i think i will sleep early.I need to wake up early again tomorrow. i have stuffs to do and things to think about *sigh. I wont be blogging tomorrow due to the fact that I will be at Miri,though I am taking my laptop with me,I wont be blogging cause I will be busy.I will be back on Sunday.

THINGS TO DO NEXT WEEK

confirmation about the reunion
prepare for reunion
finish up report
finish up program coding
do my ugama report.

I wake up as early as 8 something,daddy was surprised.I tuck in early last night so yeah,went out for breakfast at the normal place, then went to bought some gift then I spotted alot of stuff that I like,I will buy them.I WANT THEM SO BADLY.I am planning to keep my hair long and then I will straighten it since my hair is well yeah,Thick.

alright,I think I am done here

WHAT A BORING POST =.="

burn the candle

2009-12-10T15:54:00.002+08:00

well,this is another update,that woman,the one in picture with me,I MISS HER,she is currently at Indon, I MISS YOU WOMAN,come to my place when you are my back,we have so much to do and update.people around college thought that we are friends,well we are more than that,we are cousin who actually look like sister.most of my friends said that they have never seen people that close like we both. i miss you >.<

its already the 10th of December.I have one report and three assignment to worry about,tomorrow is going to be a busy day cause I will be playing Titanic. I hate ICS to bits,its very hard and my brain just couldn't think like that!FML!

so,last night,i was on msn with my friends discuss about our program coding then suddenly a friend of mine txt me,it was supposed to be my friend but i guess it was his girl again texting my life.

click to enlarge. (:

your voice

2009-12-09T13:32:00.002+08:00

i am still short.

sorry for not updating, I have been busy and yes,the main reason,LAZY.I don't wanna make this blog dead so yeah,here's the update cause Mallie text me in msn lastnight and say "update your blog"

first of all,i would say,CONGRATS TO ALL WHO PASS PMB. all T'cher Wendy's student and friends.Good luck in form 4 people and those who fail,dont give up.I failed and I fight through it,I have stand up to become who I am today,without bothering what people said or shit and how people look down on me,I don't care.seventeen year old in engineering college is something to be proud of,No doubt baby!

I have done my software assignment,not totally done but I still have reports to do,the work on Excel are done,I want my instructor to check but she is not online in msn,she is away and I have wait for few nights. time difference,I assume.I always woke up late,in the afternoon cause I sleep in the morning.This is a good thing for me cause when school re-open I will be dead by then,exams,practicals and so on. *sigh. I was pretty fuck up last night that I feel like God hated me so much :(,FUCK MY LIFE!FML!FML!FML!there are seriously lots of stuff to whine about,I just don't understand certain stuff.why shit happens,why must there be shit in life and why is life a real bitch :( my left eyes hurts,life is real bitch,REAL FUCKING BITCH!

so let see,I have done my program coding,excel,and soon,my sales report.it took me like,forever to do my program coding,its tough,i seperate my work :(,i lost my assignmemt 1 report,therefore no refrence for me.sigh*

I was suppose to watch a fucking movie this Saturday,but then it turns out to disappointment,Mum always put her unimportant social life before us. see,LIFE IS A REAL BITCH.

I NEED TO BE GIVEN A BREAK BY EVERYONE,stop giving me preesure already

you stare like a ray gun

2009-12-06T04:01:00.003+08:00

can anyone motivate me?can anyone please give me a reason to do my assignments?i don't have much to blog about actually,just trying to whine,I HAVEN'T BEEN DOING MY ASSIGNMENTS!for the time being,I have no time for cheap-lifeless human who keep using me and be friends with me only because I know its dirty lil' secret.I have no fear to speak up.try me.

me and my friends are going to have beaachBITCH party on the 18th Dec,can't wait to see them girls.rinduuu ku rah durang ever since i left smpw.they are the bomb,no doubt about that.

I can't wait for lots of things,I have a feeling that alot of good things are going to happen.

i wanna sleep,i wanna wake up late later cause My parents will be out,My maid is taking off,My bro is off to BSB,so left me and my sis,so i must sleep so that i don't hunt for food since i can't actually cook..even worst i can't drive,so that means i can't buy food for me-self =.="

although i am lifeless i am still awesome :p ahaha

night fella

just like a disco light

2009-12-04T03:40:00.002+08:00

i over do the contrast!darn it!i contrast it so that i float in the pic and not look so pale!i painted my nails green and pink. I text people just for an opinion okay!I might paint all 10 green later or maybe buy 3 more new colors,yellow,blue and purple.I ditched my assignment for TWO DAYS ALREADY,TWO DAYS,TWO FRIGGING FUCKING DAYS! I am so DEAD! yes,I will do them later but its almost four now and I still can't sleep!insomnia?no.no.no.

my little sis was telling me something about MJ.
so here's the thing,ever since MJ pass away,he has been the talk of the year,the trend,the new black or something like that.why.let me tell you

how many of us ARE actually MJ's fans? by us here,i mean teens even those younger than me,or pre-teens around the age of 10-11.
I have a friend,Kimms to be exact.YES HE IS A REAL MJ'S FANS!He is one real MJ's fans I am NOT Kidding here!
My sis told me the other day at their school,they were celebrating T'cher's day,as pathetic as they could be,a group of kids made a shirt with a logo that says "i love MJ",and EVEN MORE PATHETIC,The only thing they know about MJ is "moonwalk",I know he was famous for that,everybody knows that okay!they even have a dance something for MJ where they are not MJ's fans,they are only doing that cause MJ had been the talk of the year.silly kids now a days. its like the "photography" thing,look hard in kid's facebook now,go to their info and read their about me,95% of them wrote "photography" or something like that.
please,can't they just get a life already?
I know MJ is a legend,but that's not the way you guys show your respect to him,by faking your fonds towards MJ,I bet if i ask 10 questions about MJ,you guys could only get 3 right unless you are a real fan!
this do make some kind of sense.this is my point of view,hate em'.leave it alone (:

I am tucking in now,good Mornight (its not midnight cause its half morning)

xo

on the loose

2009-12-03T17:07:00.002+08:00

being the most jobless and a very mean bitch i found out that THOSE LOSERS have a FAN PAGE in yes,WHERE ELSE but FACEBOOK!LOSER ON THE LOOSE!LOOSER ON THE LOOSE!yes,you guys are AWESOME but I am sorry to say that my grandfather is AWESOME-ER! see who knows the world better now! ;D ;D
waking up at 2PM,ditching my assignments ~~for 2 days already~~, without eating anything,without shower, i went blog-hopping the whole afternoon.see people funny faces in facebook and laugh alone delete some kind of irrelevant people from my friend's list. i come to realize something..follow me (:

teenagers now a days,well whereas could they go if not the ~~mall~~ which i like it better as mohooollll~
they dress up like ~~poklens~~ with their so call BIG scene hair,wearing sweaters(without realising they are staying in Brunei which is HOT most of the time), over-make-up! walked in BIG groups, lovers in the group usually looks horny that they can't stop touching each other(GET A ROOM), guys usually try to look like oliver sykes and pierce all over their face, usually hang around rails or in front of the cinema,they usually WALK-IN RPS and in every group there must be ONE of them having a dslr hang around their neck..AGREEE????
funny part...
taking VAIN pictures of themselves,they call it photoshoot.
is photoshoot and photography the new black or what?did people use it cause its a trend?yes,there are many awesome photographer in Brunei,in facebook there are actually people who are really good at it and some just i rather not say. they don't know the difference between photoshoot and VAIN,nice and ugly!

facebook (:
NO,I AM NOT AGAINST FACEBOOK!posting own singging video covering people's song AND THEN write something like this "suara ku nda lawa.tag siapa saja kamu mau!\m/ suara ku bida,lau mau dgr then dgr" if its ugly then WHY would u post in facebook and humilliate yourself.for so many i have listen,they are ONLY TWO person in facebook who have really nice voice when they put their cover. check them out in youtube,THEY ARE NOT KB-ians,Bandar-ians to be exact,one of them is in my link list,look harder! (:

giving funny name in facebook to themselves like MCblaa..you know lah!so predictable!in other word,they can say to be,wanna be korean and westerners ;D

maybe after reading this,you can spam my blog by asking me..

don't say you don't wear skinny and get all dress up for mall
don't say you are not addicted to facebook
don't say you never use fake names.
and whatever

before that
yes,I AM PROUD TO SAY THAT i don't get dress up for mall..I WEAR SLIPPER THERE,A TSHIRT AND A SHORT!that's it..i feel good!

i am into facebook,yes,keeping me updates with my classmates and the fun we had in college with pictures posted and tag,NOT THOSE "YOU ARE TAG YOU ARE IT ANNOYING SHIT"

lastly,i don't use fake names. Lydia Wee. look harder (:

i know,i am a loser,a very awesome loser indeed (:

so to the guy who spammed me,i don't think they know about me unless there are people there exposing me like always..people just love kissing my ass don't they?

problem with guys

2009-12-03T16:51:00.001+08:00

The problems with GUYS:

If you TREAT him nicely, he says you are IN LOVE with him;
If you Don't, he says you are PROUD.
If you DRESS Nicely, he says you are trying to LURE him;
If you Don't, he says you are from KAMPUNG.
If you ARGUE with him, he says you are STUBBORN;
If you keep QUIET, he says you have no BRAINS.
If you are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;
If he's Smarter than you, he is GREAT.
If you don't Love him, he tries to POSSES you;
If you Love him, he will try to LEAVE you.(very true huh?)
If you don't MAKE LOVE with him., he says you DON'T LOVE him;
If you DO, he says you are CHEAP.
If you tell him your PROBLEM, he says you are TROUBLESOME;
If you DON'T, he says that you don't TRUST him.
If you SCOLD him, you are like a NANNY to him;
If he SCOLDS you, it is because he CARES for you.
If you BREAK your PROMISE, you cannot be TRUSTED;
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If you SMOKE, you are BAD GIRL;
If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMENT.
If you do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;
If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If you HURT him, you are CRUEL;
If he HURTS you, you are too SENSITIVE!

sleepless

2009-12-03T05:01:00.000+08:00

very ugly and simple (:

to the guys out there.

2009-12-03T01:35:00.003+08:00

i got these from a friend's facebook on how to win a girl's heart
i will bold any that yknw me likeeyyy

and comment with me on comment with the ones that i don't likeeyyy

[1] We don’t like it when you compare us to your ex, unless you’re comparing how much better we are.

[2] We hate hurting and flirting guys.

[3] We love to argue over who loves who more, because it’s adorable and it puts that sparkle in our eyes. i kinda hate arguments,so no bold for this one ;D

[4] When we fight, we want you to settle it first.

[5] We can’t sleep knowing your upset with us. people know i am a sleepyhead,i can sleep no matter what so this doesn't really count ;D ;D

[6] Your voice is our favorite song.

[7] We like waking up to texts in the morning, even if you want to be sleeping, we enjoy hearing that ringer going off and reading some sweet msg from you.

[8] When we think you’re the one…we mean you have us, regardless of what happened, and what may happened.

[9] When we say you’re the one, you will always have a part of us forever. Don’t rip our hearts to shreds.

[10] We get restless sometimes. Show us you care, by standing by our side, by fighting for us. well.not quite for ME cause i can handle my own thing most of the time

[11] We will fight for you if we can’t be without you. Don't make us fight for you all the time though..We get worn out and think you’re just slipping away anyways. See that we need you, see that we love you like no other.

[12] Forever isn’t long enough. We want to be with you, in life and death.

[13] When we say we miss you, no other girl could miss you more than we do at that moment in time.

[14] We will listen to music that shows how we really feel. Listen to the lyrics, think of the deeper meaning, to see who we really are.

[15]We like having “our” song[s]. It gives us comfort listening to it.

[16] We like when you tell us what you’re thinking about us.

[17] We wanna know that you think about us too.

[18] If there’s hair in our face..gently brush it away and kiss us afterwards. this is rather annoying for me =\

[19] Hold us when we cry, calm us down. Let us bury our face in your chest.

[20] When you hold us, hold us like you’re holding the world.

[21] Holding hands is cute.

[22] We want you to curl up with us on the couch and watch scary movies, so we can pretend, [or really be] to scared, so you’ll hold us tighter.

[23] We make you watch sappy movies with us, cause we want you to distract us, by showering us with kisses, and showing that movie love,doesn’t compare to what we have.

[24] We love when you smell good, not too much cologne. Just the right amount.

[25] We like getting pretty for you. Even if you say we don't need makeup and all, sometimes it helps us with our confidence and helps us be more comfortable. With time we will allow you to see us without it.

[26] if we tell you not to spend money on us, we love it when you get us little gifts as a spur of the moment thing.

[27] we don’t want expensive things. You could buy us a twenty five cent ring and tell us you got it cause you were thinkin’ of us and we’ll be happy.

[28] If a girl writes a poem for you, she really cares for you. If she writes more than one, you’ve got her wrapped around your finger.

[29] We want someone who loves us for who we are. Someone who inspires us to be a better person, to reach our goals. To love even deeper.

[30] Home-made gifts are the best. A handmade valentines day card, with a cheesy saying that you came up with, is more heartfelt than an expensive card. this would be rather sweet,but then having such an itchy hand..i guess errr haha

i am so lovely,NOT!

little froggeh

2009-12-02T04:34:00.003+08:00

I am pretty obsessed with sheep now although I have been called froggy by number of people out there.I would rate my day 5/10 ,it was boring,and I was tired all day long.doing nothing makes me tired. I was so frustrated with this boredom that I did my Software assignment,but somehow,I stuck at task 2. I remembered I taught Fiona the steps,I forgot it myself now.*sigh. since I was stuck,I stopped,I will be doing ugama or maybe my Program Coding later.the only think I am worry about is always my programming,the program design and so on.algorithm should be alright this time. ICS will be the LAST assignment i am going to work on,its hard..like REALLY HARD. i got KIV for my first assignment. I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOO GONNAAA DIE IF MY SECOND ASSIGNMENT IS ANOTHER KIV :( no merit and distinction is already frustrating enough okay :( I had 2 soup bread today,tomato and mushroom.the tomato soup bread taste like shit :( :( :( its very MIHIR OKAY! my hair is having a little problems for the past few days,its okay now :)

HELLO DECEMBER,i can't wait for new year (L)

heart to heart.

2009-12-01T04:55:00.004+08:00

i can't sleep.my eyes just wouldn't shut.whenever i shut my eyes,something is going to keep on playing in my thought. its been 2 months,i miss being in-love but i think i am not ready for commitment now. i know there are someone out there for me,loving me with all his heart and taking me as i am. i am afraid of being hurt,being used and being dumped. i was once with my ex,for nearly 19 months,through thick and thin we made it but we fail to make it through one of the hardest challenge,long distance. i know there are many unreasonable reason why we break up and so on.i tried to love you again but I was too afraid to do so,we can never last more than 5 days without a fight,you can say all you wan about me,good or bad,i don't know and i don't wanna care. i have always know from the bottom of my heart that i was never a good girlfriend and i will never be a good girlfriend to anyone out there.I betrayed guys trust towards me,I always make my guy angry,I always make them feel fucked up,I always give them depression and I always know that I am the one who make them dump me and that's why I never seek for forgiveness and pity-ness from them.I know I was never right although again and again I try to make it as if I was right.almost in every fight,I act as if I was right,I always wanted to be the "right" one instead of the "wrong" one.I got up to my boiling point very easily and I bitch them when I was in my worst mood. I made them gossip about their friend,I am a really mean person,trust me on this!I even bitch about their friend in front of them without bothering whose feeling I hurt.I am really and ignorant type,I don't care who I hurt and who i fucked up.that is the worst side of me.days past by and I am growing older,without notifications,people will change and so on and I can't wait for the day for me,myself to change,Now that i have come and realise what a terrible and horrible person I am,I am ready for changes in me,myself.I am tired of people using me more importantly PEOPLE WHO BE FRIENDS WITH ME BECAUSE HE/SHE IS AFRAID THAT I WILL SPILL HIS/HER SECRET. why can't people who dislike me,just LEAVE ME ALONE like how i leave em' alone.don't they have a live to care about?weird.there are lots if explanation to things out there,I have under estimated some people and I know I am wrong. my mum says that I have a killer mouth,when I am angry,anything that I would spill is unexpected. don't need to watch out,the killer mouth doesn't come out all the time,only when I am in MORE than my usual boiling point.there are number of people out there,annoying the shit out of me,hating me for some reason and only God knows why. There are girls who just can't have enough shit of me. They think that I really care about their point of view,they think I care if they hate me,the truth is,I don't give a fuck if you hate me.there are more things to care about other than you hating me and bitching about how ugly am I.you should look in the mirror sometimes,just because alot of guys drools over you doesn't make you pretty,they just wanna get into your pants and even more amazing,they only see you in your makeup (:,who is uglier now?i don't need make up!sarcasm is a beautiful thing okay,try see the beauty in it,so don't think that you can make me feel bad by just being sarcastic with me,puh-lease.to a girl out there,who removed me in my friend's facebook,I feel really sorry for you,If you are that worry aboit your boyfriend,why don't you just tie him up?its NOT my fault that your boyfriend and I happen to be friends and why are you so damn worry?can't you put a little trust on your boyfriend and a little comfident on yourself?kids now a days,*sigh. fighting in facebook over the lamest shit in the world.

ts not that I don't wanna love you,its you who make me too lazy and too afraid of being hurt and so on.

~~it took me more than 30mins to post this~~
goodnight (:

with the sound of your voice.

2009-11-30T19:44:00.003+08:00

I am back and I have hundreds of pictures to upload here and there. the road trip was alright. i can't wait for December. I bought a geek spec,a purple dress, a yellow tee and sheds. Sibu is a nice place for ladies to shop,but not for guys,Guys stuff are expensive there. I went to a place,its like China,its a chinese temple and its like China,exactly like China!I only went there to take some pictures then continue our road trip after that. reached Brunei around 9+,shower and do my thing.I will start doing my assignment tomorrow cause I wanna finish them before I leave Brunei again,i don't want my assignments to be such a burden and futher more,I don't wanna complain about how many assignments I have cause one of the course have EIGHT assignments to do,we are lucky enough to have ONLY four,i guess this is how it works when we are in engineering college.whoever that thought MKJB is easy,you better think again.i miss my girls >.<
I will upload a little pictures here later (:

800th with love.

2009-11-30T01:21:00.000+08:00

We guys don't care if you talk to other guys. We don't care if you're friends with other guys. But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off. It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there. We don't care if a guy calls >OR TEXTS< you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. That it can't wait till the morning

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/

cute/stunning, we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong We'll stop trying to convince you. The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood I'm in.Let us pay for you! Don't 'feel bad' We enjoy doing it.It's expected.Smile and say 'thank you

Kiss us when no one's watching.If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking,we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.We like you for who you are and not what you are.Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.or my T-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily. Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hot Chris Brown, Brat Pitt, or Jesse McCartney in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'? I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/stud/cutie/sexy' or whatever else you can think of.

On the other hand I'm not saying i wouldn't like it ether ;)

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change! Ditch his sorry ass, disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.

Someone who will honor your morals
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowes
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

Guys re-post this if you agree.
Girls re-post this if you think it's cute.

-Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that all the girls that read this will re-post this

ADVICE:

*Holding Hands
Girls :If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of
times

*Movies
Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

*Loving each other
Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it

*Laying below the stars
Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with her.

And Boys. If you like a girl, just TELL THEM. There's nothing to be afraid of. And if you don't , you'll regret it your whole life. They might just like you back, take that chance , its worth it !

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-If someone realy realy loves u and u break up, he or she will come back for u! czz thts the beautiful part of True love!

nice?got em' in facebook.see who says facebook is lame?

electronic arts

2009-11-28T12:41:00.002+08:00

this will be a very very random post,just exit if you don't feel reading it.
i am currently in the hotel room,i am glad that they have internet here,i think i will die without internet,serious shit!
its a very very long journey to sibu.KAMPIS JUBUR KU DUDUK KERETA ,the road is quite bumpy,there are not much shopping mall here,very sad right?i know.so,i have to wake up at and jalan around 7,reached sibu at 3.stop by Bintulu and Tatau,my first impression about sibu is jijik bahhh public toiletnyaaa.sanggup eh i go back to hotel,just to pee and tahann saja :( :( :(

its around 12 noon now,i really wanna swim but i can't cause,ladies problem.so sad!its okay,i will swim my ass off when i got back.there are lots of tees and bags and SHOES here,shopaholic will like the shopping mall,i repeat MALL not MALLS!i saw a hello kitty bag,really cute and CUTE AND CUTE!i love em' i might go shopping again later,at around 2 or maybe 3.then I will go gym around 5 or 6,not sure.
i might be going back to Brunei tomorrow,then i will start working on my assignment than watch new moon and i might sleep over there,not sure.

everything was so PURPLE on the first day of the trip,i saw a purple spoon,quite odd right?iskii ku ambil ;p ;p ;p ahaha i find it real cute,and when i reached the hotel,i saw a purple hotel and then in our hotel room,we have purple hair-dryer.what a purple day which reminds me of my purple turtle jelly. ;)

the day before i left for sibu was the last day of school,its quite boring on the last day.it was the worst teacher's day ever.no performance only talk-talk.didn't get to take any pictures,i was pretty sad that day.i escaped and went home for something and went back to school around 11?i was so sick by then,i wanted to cry while waiting for mum,and then i felt a little better after a while.my tummy hurts so bad,i didn't eat the whole day until 3 pm?the longest i survive without food!chat with mallie and felt really really good then.Mallie had helped me alot this few days,she been cheering me up,talked to me at my most fucked up moment,mallie is the best ;D i wish her all her best with muis (: me lavs ya,mallie

i am hungry,i wanna eat. :(
i wanna love you,but don't hurt me. >.<
i will post more when i am in Brunei,

xoxo

our ONE AND ONLY female instructor for 09/10,beloved GC.

2009-11-26T13:34:00.008+08:00

they are there,to keep me laughing everyday (:

CS'A' people (:

i find this cute ^0^

from all of us

food' trust me,semuaaa abis!

kami sayang our ONE AND ONLY female inst. ;D

i am sexier than a sexy frog ;p

some pictures of teacher's day.
we had a great time,it was the best day all of us had ♥
our food was all awesome
i love my jelly,turtle shape. ;D

awesome

2009-11-25T12:38:00.003+08:00

my girls,those who never fail to make me laugh my ass off

its been real hard for me to blog,my mozilla wont load this web page therefore i have to use IE.I'm currently having my lunch break,finally a free time for me to blog about what had happened for the past few days.so,Monday,as planned,me and my girls went swimming.my sister joined us.we went to mumong complex,take lots of pictures but we wont be uploding it anywhere due to all our shirt are very sexy.we went swimming after college hours,around 5 and finish 6++ then went to WYWY for dinner.it was fun.i love my girls.Tuesday is always tiring,well everyday is tiring.we had a discussion for eating which will be held in our classroom,2 hours from now. I made jelly,well not techinically me,but i have the maid to do em' for me. i couldn't stop smiling,behind a depression,i am happy for something.

for that depression that is running in me,only Mallie knows about it,I am all down if i have to talk about it.i just never thought that things will be this way.i have put so much hope.all my hope and wish just break that way.you can imagine my disappointment.a fact that i could not accept.

disappeared,♥ a melody from heart to heart.a message.

Cause you just disappeared

Walked away from me and let me all alone

Without a reason why

You didn’t even say goodbye

You just disappeare

dWalked away from me and let me all alone

you know I need you

You just disappeared from my life

I don’t understand why it all had to end

You were like my best friend

I just can’t believe it

Where did it go Was it something I said (or could it be it was just to much to soon)

Was I to in love with you?

its very nice isn't it?i was touched :')

here comes the rain again

2009-11-22T16:47:00.002+08:00

sunday again peeps.its already almost the end of november..the time just pass so fast,its gonna be 2010 soon.i guess i can't wait.its already the end of test week.i am glad that the last paper,programming was easier than expected.i just hope i pass..i have 1 assignment being KIV darn it!i have expected myself to flung my ics but then *sigh. too lazy to think about it again.i just have to work harder for the second one. i am getting fat,so i am going to exercise during holidays,going gym with my friends and swimming maybe.thats the best i could do.i am leaving Brunei for a few day next week,i am going to somewhere,then during Dec,another outing.i just can't imagine how am i going to survive without my laptop.maybe i will be taking the mini inspiron with me.
i really hate the fact that has been drowning me,i have a few people in my circle who comes to me only when they need me.i.e when they need my help and when their life is as colorful as a rainbow,i am going to a little mis nothing,no one.they don't even appear in msn to chat with you when you need them and so on.the way they reply your text is like "err" "okayy" its usually less than 10 words though.its pretty frustating then at the end if the day,i am going to be the one who get the blame for not becoming a good friend and so on. even worst,don't bitch about me behind my back and try to act so close to me and so on.stop taking advantage of me!!its seriously staring to annoying the shit out of me already and guess what?i am sick of it already.if you people wanna be friend with me,then do it a nice way and if you guys wanna come and go,just don't think about coming again!stop being such an asshole.i had enough and when you don't wanna be my friends,leave me a message saying you are not my friend anymore!
its all just a saying and everything i am sick off.i am tired off all this shit.tired of waking up just to answer call and of course i have lots more thing to complain about.i am just that lazy to type
so tomorrow is going to be swimming day with my girls.its gonna be fun.new moon is going to premier thursday,damnn!its gonna be real hard to get the ticket so i am thinking to watch em' when i come back from my holiday.sooner or later imma gonna private this blog with only certain people have access to it.

everything above you.

2009-11-20T10:41:00.002+08:00

morning.
i was up real early cause i slept early lastnight.i had 8 hours of beauty sleep!I still have to study for last tests tomorrow which is programming.*sigh. i haven't been blogging cause lately,i have after-school outings, -.-" since wednesday,went to Bandar after school.I was supposed to watch 2012 but then my sis refuse to go with me so we just shopped around and eat,went home around 11.study study but then the computer systen just wont crawl into my brain.lame right? wednesday was a little bit of disaster in the morning.i was really really at my boiling point.i really hate people who did that to me!i had my computer system test yesterday and i swear to god,that was the hardest paper i have seen in my life!i was so blur.drawing the circuit is as hard as washing clothes :( i drew the input but i judt don't know what's the output! the car was hjdshfjdshgjkhjkcvnajsknvksahrkhANNOYING and that's why i HATE car.why can't they just use car like normal human not with the fddjskhfkjehvkwehjvck engine!VERY annoying!!!
went to miri after school with mumy,daddy and racheal. I was supposed to be at shy's party but then i can't leave my family behind.so yeah.I will make one more in the future and hoping its gonna be really kickass.went to dynasty hotel for dinner and the food taste like heaven!love em'!
i might go swimming with my girls this monday!can't wait!!!

kicking the habit.

2009-11-15T11:20:00.008+08:00

I didn't blog for the past few days due to my busy days and class tests.the last time i update was tuesday midnight.so i should start from wednesday,day of victory for me and kinna.something happened which only stays between my tight circle. what ever that happened at vegas stays in vegas. I have been gaming alot without thinking about my class tests.thanks to geb and kimms,our programming class test are post poned to 21/11. well,more time for me to revise the whole topic.but then the time is so short.computer system is on the 19th and programming 21st?damn!tomorrow will be software class test,i am ready,but then our instructor said that there will be written and practical for it.well practical is easy but ahh i am just to lazy to think about the written test.i will study this afternoon,well hopefully.

last night was another annual dinner for JD studio,i rushed home and feel down and hit my hips(the same broken bone when i was 5) and my head,it hurts to the core,but ohh well.it was pouring heavily and I was soaking wet.I was to embarrassed go upstairs so i dry my self again and again before heading upstairs,the show was okay not as kick ass as last year though,the show end around 6+ and then had our dinner there and then I went to my aunt's place cause I don't feel like staying home. watched 2 DVDs there,wrong turn and Jennifer's body.now,i am looking forward to watch 2012 but I heard the tickets are fully booked in the cinema but I am just a lil' bit scared to watch that movie.hmmm~i seriously can't wait for holiday and tomorrow,my math inst might probably tell us our maths phase test marks.i am scared.i must nail merit man!MUST! the maths test was sooooo easy,like seriously easy.its way easier than the revision paper except for the graph question,which i didn't chose due to the ~~cheap~~ graph paper. this fucking internet connection is seriously killing me!i feel like going to the beach =3

end'

told ya.

2009-11-11T00:04:00.002+08:00

Shakina my bestfriend bake cuppies and gave me 4. it taste wonderful darling,we should bake together soon :p

dear girl (you know who you are),and NO,NOT SABRINA.
count your self a little lucky whore,why?if it wasn't because of zee,his friend and his sis,you would be crying by now. I have something really harsh to say to you girl but then zee stopped me from doing so,like i said,COUNT YOURSELF LUCKY! its something really really harsh that i couldn't believe i said those words out. err,well.you are still a minor.its so sad when some people who want to spam your blog and they just don't have the balls to and they ask someone else to do so. well,two faces bitch it is.don't expect me to be nice to you after this,seriously!DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT!you are just another random girls who just can't wait to get laid,having lots of flings doesn't make you cool,more like a wasted youth! i wonder how your dad feels about you being that way,he must be real disappointed and sad.teens just love to acts without thinking how their parents feel. you don't even know what people talk about you behind your back,you get paranoid when people shit a little bit about you.i do understand that,kau kekurangan kasih sayang,thats why you have been acting like a whore around guys,no wonder all your ex(s) dump you after using you.you must have scare em' of with your real face,well as far as EVERYONE is concern,you look different from real life and all your pictures are edited. freaky!well little girl,just end whatever you start will you?i feel real sorry for you. you don't even have the guts to tag me in my chatbox yourself.are you that pathetic,ehh wait,YOU ARE!ku kesiankan brbes rh kamu ane,bnrth.sal brg atu pun mau dikelaiekan kah?lalala.adang sikit.skulah balum jua abes kan belabih!abeskan tia FORM kamu atu dulu bru kan bertemeng. ;p and err,spamming my blog?not so wise,wait..since when can u think wisely? ;D kira kamu cool lah buat catu,cool mu atu nda bawa mati lai,dusa yang kau buat tue bawa mati,nda malu!dasar.nth2 kau x yang buat _______err mlas ku ckp!

and hidungmy ;
i don't give a fuck who you are and where did you found my blog,and i still need an explanation,WHY AND WHY your ip is the same as ";D" and the timeline is sooo damn close. weird.and why the fuck would i care if you are a skater?lai,skating atu nda membawa smpai kau mati tue lai,ne nah dusa yang kau buat rh aku ah,atu yang kau bawa mati!dah nyanku,jangan spam bah,apakan masalah mu ne kan?andg kamu ane fashionnya buduh sikit and majal sikit kah?alolololo kesian bnr kamu ane,nda skulah?skulah tah ah!kau pikir kau cakap "damai" catu then its over.think again bastard!told you again and again not to mess with me.i state it so clearly there,not to spam cause you just have no idea how good can i be in tracking.
YOU BETTER LEAVE A NAME AND AN E-MAIL ADD there

bye'

night LOSER yes esp yang kan spam p nda branie,ucp blkg2 mcm apa kau lai!

lastly,

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let the pictures do the talking,KID! ;p

2009-11-10T08:18:00.005+08:00

morning'
how do you "hidungmy" and ";D" love the pictures above?err,wait,you both are the same person. people,please click the pictures for clearer view.

so boy,here's a little message to you yes?

i don't care which skater group do you come from!"NDA BAWA KE KUBUR TUE LAI".
well,in one of your message in my chat box,you were asking which school am i from?right,don't call it a school,call it college.yes,I am studying still,in MKJB,for even more details,I am doing computer studies.so,now i don't need to tell you why i say "don't spam".

so you are one of the "ahh skaters" so as your friend,the one i chat with the other night.who insist to "damai" with me,and your other friend,sabrina,like she said,case is close,so why you hidungmy,reopen it.I was so chill already and already let go this,its YOU!YOU,who just can't stop messing with me,now i don't think i want a case close with you kid!you should know, never mess with Lydia.you seriously don't like to hear me swear and you wont like me when I am totally fucked up.what is wrong with you boy?what the fuck is your problem with me?who give the fuck on who create hangloose and who give a fuck to what you think of me?so who cares if you are a skaters?are you really that good in skating,why don't you pay a visit to KB see how the KB skaters skate.they are way better than you!100%!even those KB skaters who have been skating for ages don't have a problem with me going hangloose and so on,and you?who the fuck do you think you are?the worst part is,you just wouldn't stop right,so now,I WONT STOP TOO!bring it on kid!i told you to stop but it seems like my message just can't reach you there in Bandar yeah?
are you a skater or a wankers?if you are a skater than why are you not in BBB,oopps,maybe you are too young to follow and your parents wont let you to follow cause they are worry that you will lost your balls.err wait,YOU HAVE NO BALLS!not that i have seen em' before,*euw! its just that,if you have balls,i believer you will have the guts to key in your name in the space for name and yeah,you would have confront me.now what?what the fuck do you want from me?can you please click the image,sana silap mu wang!salah wah tmpt mu spamming,ya jua ";D" ya jua "hidungmy" urang yang sama,ip add kamu sama.time line pun sama!bukan kanak-kanak 3 tahun ne!urg 17 ne kan kau tipu!I AM NOT 3 FOR GOD SAKE!see,i told you to stop messing with me!
are you jealous that i have people on my back who reply your message on behalf of me.and you don't have one.and is that why you create "hidungmy" *sigh,i pity you.serious shit!

of course you don't want fight,you have no guts and no balls.now,i wont stop!who cares,i will keep digging you till your ass hole,you started it,i stopped and you just wouldn't stop right.so now,as you wish!so what if "call me bitch then imma show you one!" hah,kid,you so don't know me and that's why you been kissing my ass yeah?yes,so what i am a bitch,I AM A CRAZY BITCH WHO KNOW WHAT I WANT! and apa kau buat?we are cooler than you?err wait,TANPA BELAIT,SIAPA LAH KAMU?TANPA MINYAK AND GAS DI KB,SIAPA LAH KAMU!?! and kamu cooler,dont make me slap your face bastard!you are just some random skaters who is still a newbies,ohh puh-lease,cool tah kamu tue.COOL IN BEING A SCARY CAT it is (: and little boy,this is not over,not until i know who you are,not until you say sorry for bitching my ass!

you should have ask my information from people before messing with me.
now that you wont stop kissing my ass,I will not stop too! (;

bye,son of a hoe' ;p

more like wankers

2009-11-09T14:55:00.002+08:00

I tried to blog yesterday and last saturday but then I just don't have the time. Now that I have the time,so yeah.keep reading.this will be a not so interesting,broken english post ;p

I am really sleepy right now,feel like taking a nap,perhaps after posting.I have 2 tests and 1 exam to study and assignment. *sigh. so little time T.T

I have craps to post about but then nyeh, later have people say "wow.i am younger than you yet i know the world better than you" eyaeyaeya lah~emangnya gue pikirin?puh-lease!sometimes people are just way weird,they like to make matter gone worst.i know,my english is so crappy that clever people just don't know what am i shitting about,but i just want clever people to leave it as it is.yes?jangan kan majal2 damai but kan main tampar2 di blkg! ;D

tata'

i am LYDIA for fuck's sake!

2009-11-07T19:02:00.002+08:00

i always thought that I have no frequent reader,I guess I am wrong today.well as you all can see through my polluted chatbox,i have been spammed by this brainless animalikehuman who initial itself as ";D" ,in malay people say "hal kecil jadi hal besar" ,"small matter become big matter" in english!
honestly,i am tired of this humanlikeanimal spamming my blog,i don't have time to check my blog every second.I might as well spend my time playing my cafe world.
Which one should I whine about?exams,homeworks or THAT.
the hangloose stuff was so 2 seconds ago?its just that animalikehuman who just can't stop complaining and yeah SPAMMING MY BLOG. maybe that person has no life,no school,NO BRAIN,i repeat NO BRAIN. no offence but then spamming my blog really makes you no life& sab i am kinda lost what you are talking about,so yeah.whatever. I am not really intrested too (:

the so-not-intesting part..i have exams in few more days,few as in less then 10!programming and math :( :( feel very sorry for myself
i will re-edit this post as mallie just msg me about something and I havent shower ;p

take this breathe baby.

2009-11-06T13:45:00.003+08:00

rise and shine'
sorry about my last angry post,its just that i had enough of the spammer who have been kissing my ass.i mean,if she/he really has a problem with me,they can always come to me at college,its not that hard to find me..puh-lease just leave me alone and gimme a break will ya'? ;D act like a human,just for a moment.
now,I am pretty fucked up cause lately there have been lots of stranger adding my msn. they said they got my email from "friendster" (lame) which is not true cause i don't have one even more fucked up,they said they got in from facebook,how lame?i don't put my email in facebook.screw those people who sell my email,i am so going to make a new e-mail!so annoying!

yesterday was a school holiday which i spend it by watching house season 5 the whole day. sit on the couch the whole day,couch potato ;D there's nothing much to blog about though.i just realise that i have lots of school work to do. let say, 3 notices, 1 ugama assignment about fasting, 1 programming 1/2 incomplete and math.Phase test for math is Wednesday which means mon and tuesday is a must study night :(

more update soon' ;D

penyasak

2009-11-03T23:44:00.004+08:00

this post will be in malay AS MY SPAMMER DOESN'T UNDERSTAND ENGLISH,cause that animal doesn't understand the meaning of "don't spam" . i feel so sorry for you.even my 6 years old cousin understands that.*sigh. so yeah my point is these bunch of haters just can't leave me alone.stop kissing my ass sluts!

ne nah HANGLOOSE yang kau sasakan aku buat ah.makin kau sasak.makin ku kan buat.napaakan.sakit hati mu ku catu....yath kau sakit hati tue?lau kau mau ikut-ikutan pun buleh jua sal aku pun ikut-ikutan ne.penyasak ne kau ane!aku yg jenis penyasak g nda mcm kau.over kau ah! eh DANG lau kan spam,spam kai nama ah!apa tau mu ah?SPAM URG GANYA?asuh tah buduh mu dsana tue!slh time wah kau menyasak ne rh aku.time aku sasak ne jualah!ne nah kau dpt!
if you are the spammer yg dulu,WHO CANT HAVE ENOUGH OF ME..
apa masalah mu ah..suka kau rh aku?LAU SUKA CKP SUKA..LAU SASAK JANGAN AKU DIKACAU MUN AKU NDA NGACAU!jangan tah sibuk wah halku..aku aku.kau kau!sadang kamu2 ah!

TAU JUA KU ADA YANG NDA BULEH LIAT AKU MENYANANG NE!mun sasak gtau saja..nda payah aku ditantang lau melintas!apa hal kan sasak rh urg trus2?asuh wah buduh kamu sana!MUN KAMU NDA SUKA AKU THEN LEAVE ME ALONE..AKU NDA PERNAH KACAU KAMU.AKU NDA PERNAH KACAU ADMIRE,BOYFRIEND KAMU!AKU DIAM2 JANGAN DIKCAU EH AWANG2 AND DAYANG2 SEKALIAN!KAU NDA PHM ENGLISH KAN..NE NAH POST MELAYU SUPAYA KAU PHM ERTI "JANGAN SPAM BLOG KU" KIMA! .|.
urang biarkan makin jadi2.heran ku..ASALKAN HARI SELASA MESTI KENA SPAM BLOG KU!andang penyakit penyasak drg ane dtg msa ry selasa x?!!?

i hope pas ku post dlm bahasa melayu@bahasa yang diutamakn di brunei ane kau phm jua..mun kau nda phm jua..suruh tah parents mu antr kau skulah..buduh atu jangan jua luan dasuh..takut ku makin menjadi..kesian krg..brunei ne maju ne sdh!

kickass!

2009-11-02T22:02:00.003+08:00

my blogskin screw up,the host removed the image so yeah.i have to change besides i find domokun way sexy!i know i should update,well i have too much to do,like an essay on microprocessor which I didn't fullfill the task cause it was too hard,I try my best already.I was up till 2 am studying for my maths test which was post-poned to tomorrow.fucked upvery much indeed!college been treating me well yeah SUPERB except for the fact that some flies love kissing my shit!so lets update.

saturday:
it was halloween right?no,I didn't attend the pelangi thingy,i am Lydia okay and Lydia doesn't like stuffs like that.me and my darls,meichen have something better to do.it was well not really planned and not really unplanned but yeah we went to Labi,FOR GOOD.there was a party organize ny the hashing comittee.well the party was so kickass!its like 10000000x time kickass-er than any party that night.we both went there ourselves,we are worst than a couple. after dismiss from college arouns 4.30 ,we left for food at wywy stay there for quite a moment then after wywy head to my place.after I shower and everything,we went to meichen's place,well it was her turn to get ready and well we are girls and it took us forever to get done!head off to labi around 8,and damn the road was dark and we were vaining in the cars.lots of funny shit happend at Labi.esp when i think we both looks like a pary crasher. ;p well,it was hard to go up to the party place,no kidding.it was funny!i sprained my angkle but ahh it was alright.dance like there's no tomorrow and head to KB around 11,reach home around 12 or something like that.the next day,i find it impossible to move my body,overall i had fun though.thanks to meichen for that night.

Sunday:
woke up quite late,ahh spend the whole day doing maths and watch house and sleep. ;8) so yeah apparentky,do nothing ;D

TODAY;
very tired and hot the whole day.spend my days laughing with my girls..had no test though,post-poned to tomorrow?so yeah,as usual,my girls will make my day. it was pretty plain boring.some certain shitfucktardanimalookinghuman make me so damn fucked up,never mind.i am cool.do you people know..people who just can't stop kissing your ass are people who are fucking jealous of you.
i am way younger and i don't look stupid in skinnies ;D

okay,kina..i hate to say this but me miss ya ;D
I was fucked up by my assignment *sigh,its okay,better luck next time.
i should tuck in now x)

night awesome people
night losers who hate me..sometimes i wonder..if you hate me why bother to read my blog?ohh yeah cause you are that damn fucking lifeless that you have to check out how awesome my life is at the mean time.i understand how fucked up is to be you.seeing me living life to the fullest ;D

melted in fire.

2009-10-31T15:11:00.002+08:00

this will be a very short update,for the sake of shakina,of course. I Only have 15 minutes to update before i head to language and communication class.I am lame,i know.
well,with no plan,i went to chop and trim my hair yesterday. i really love the new cut..the only proper cut i had since last year or was it last 2 years. never mind.i love them. well the "sign" is currently my fav,its not my sign,someone invent that idea.since my "crabby" is being used by some disgusted human,hangloose is more sexier.
so today is so damn frustrating,the most frustrating thing is when some people being such a pain in the ass to annoy me,yes WHEN I WAS NOT IN THE MOOD!its not my fault that some certain things happened to me and doesn't happen to you!well,that's life.screw yourself to have such a lousy tight circle,i am happy with mine,dont be such a pain in the ass to annoy me!you don't wanna try me bitch.for the first time,i speak out,that's cause i couldn't take it anymore.i bet God regretted for creating such a humilliating creature to this beautiful world and then pollute this world.enough about this shit. ;p

ahhh happy hallowen people..
i will edit this again..well yeah the pic above.my new hair ;p

flunk and flonk

2009-10-28T00:31:00.003+08:00

so its time for me to update.
for sure,people will be complaining about the 'no water' thing. yes,it was that fucked up!I only get to shower around 7 in the morning and 8 at night,what make the situation worst was that,I was having tummy ache. don't they know that we will die without water? adding in,my maths paper fuck me up real bad,23 can you imagine?MY LUCKY NUMBER MUCH! my first test that i flunk.its okay,i have to work my ass off for the exam,1 week from now. some people just don't understand some certain things that are obvious. the big problem with me is that, i care shit less and i should continue more soon.
i have to sleep..i must wake uo early later.fucked up!

I AM PRIVATING MY BLOG SOON,leave me email and pass people. ;D

just feel like it

2009-10-27T01:12:00.002+08:00

BEGANBEGAN.

> if your bf told you that he's busy, so he can't go with you tonight. the truth he go chill with his friends. what would you do?
- umm okay :')

> suppose to be your friends go to mall with you, but they can't because they try to avoid you. what would you do?
so call friends~

> you go to his house. but after you enter he was having sex with bitch. what would you do?
just shut up

> your bestfriends said to you 'i hate you'. what would you do?
i said i hate you to kina cause of ... ;p HAHAH but the truth is i love her

> say if you were in trouble and you need a favour. but no one were there to help you. what would you do?
jangan saja mun susah nanti mncri aku .|. ku bagi!

> someone were hating you and told to everyone that you were un-virgin. what would you do?
mama mu tue ;D

> if the boy you like kissed you, because he want to make his gf jealous. what would you do?
FO!--->FUCK OFF

> if you were stuck in a crowd, and someone take a chance to kill you. what would you do?
scream and rub

MOVE MOVE
> your bestfriends pregnant?
WTF

> your bf kissed your bestfriend?
oh fuck! no :(

> you saw your ex with your bestfriend?
okay

> someone take your first kissed?
ummm

> already lost your first kissed?
ummmmmmmmmmm

LASTLAST.
> someone ask for check-in?

> your bestfriend's bf came to your house hug you and kissed your lips?
wtf are u doing

> you have a lots scandal, one day your bf saw you kissing with your scandal?
hahahahahah damn

> who's your first kissed?
ahh my mum..she kiss me when i was a baby

cozy

2009-10-25T14:21:00.002+08:00

i can't think of anything better to do.i have programming homework though but its so hard and i can't be bothered to think.i have lots to blog about,but for sure,after once i post it people will get touch.the problem with some people is that they only come to you when they need you.agree?no,It is NOT ABOUT MY BEST FRIEND,do take note that my best friend is the best human on earth.right,back to my story.so lately,i have encountered with lots of problems. I have come to realize how certain people really are in the inside.some standby you forever,some just leave you as dust.some are so nice to you.when they are fucked up,they come to you.when their fucked up moment is gone,they leave you,as if you never exist.sometimes or i should say,MOST OF THE TIME,i can't be bothered.you should see the weather today,its so,i don't know.calms people mind. i am sick and tired of people kissing my ass.give me a break people.

p/s kina,yes i hate you for making me jealous,yet i love you banyaks ;D

you come as dust.

2009-10-24T12:51:00.002+08:00

sorry I haven't been updating but well,not like anyone is reading this crappy shit,but still m gonna update.Well,the first thing i am going to shit about is,i hate facebook's new appearance at the home page.it seems pretty stuffy.Thursday was a blast,we,the CS-As made a surprise for our zed-zed,Yazid.all the pictures can be found in facebook,feel super sorry for tina,on her lost of her beloved grandma,my heart goes out to her.so Thursday,tiring after college,then home,straight away shower cause according to mummy,it took me 1 1/2 hours to get down and everything,so right,took Avril to her school rehersal,trust me,i almost fall asleep there,its so idk,boring at first but when you see those little kids dance,you just can't stop laughing,then we went to WYWY after that as she said she was hungry,wywy was pack with people,bumped into seniors of mine.went home around 11 and straight away go cafe world,i am so addicted,blame my bro for it.HAHA.my mum always says "its not like you can eat the food there"
i am gaining weight.hell NO!my parents left for Marudi this morning,woke up and went to college so early :( damn..

ahh i am in lunch break,will blog more later,just a lil shout out

to an awesome friend of mine

SAB-SAB-SABBY-SABRINAA!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SABBBYYY,LIL ROSE♥
(pic insert) ;p
HAVE A BLAST and goodluck for your exam next week

so i could breathe you in.

2009-10-21T21:54:00.003+08:00

English paper was alright,no comment.Paper one was harder though.The part two is almost like the English test i had early morning.the letter of request.paper 2 is way better than i thought,the answer was quite direct.the exam class was so damn hot x(. so morning session was alright. had our exam,break with my girls and have our usual menu,well,lil bored today without Tina,i hope her grandma is alright.we had ICS after break but then everyone was too busy with ICS and ugh,what else?programming,i download the ICS notes.so i took all the shirt,the one from SG,cost me 396?chill.my allowance can cover it all,for the time being though.Went to SRAT around 1+ and just sit down and feel like i am in a sauna,well picture it.finished exam around 5.30,went to seria to fetch my sister,send Dylan home then walaa..home,rest,shower,programming homework and *sigh..die >.< i still don't know why my looping stops at 7 where i key in 12?fuck it!

so i did mention about that charcoal guy,the girl he tried to impress as if i am some kind of cheap bitch trying to mess her life.she is the bitch who keep taking guys hand wrapped around her waist,she is the cheap slut who keep offering herself to guy,she is the bitch.don't look at me as if i have some problem with you!BITCH!ask your charcoal,he is the one who PANDAI-PANDAI and ASI-ASI,*sigh,i felt so pity for you.even if you are that desperate...

i am hungry again,i have stuffs to do and *sigh,i should not be nice to certain people anymore (:
hot chococalte on my wayy xD

did my time took my chances.

2009-10-20T23:19:00.002+08:00

everyone is busy with their final exam,O and A levels and me?i am busy with my first test,right.college been treating me nice,our seats been shuffle,thank God i am still near with my girls. the problem i have now is with this from one of the sec(wont mention),he is an asshole and he is darker than charcoal,he fucked up my mind,he is an asshole,he is trying to impress one of the girl in his class,and he used me and my friend.i was busy talking to a friend of mine about something,we were talking in chinese and I don't think that he could understand any words we say,so why on earth must he be so busy body and go tell people what were we talking about,EVEN IF HE WANTS THAT GIRL SO DESPERATELY,you are ugly,face the fact!WHY DON'T HE JUST GO BUSY HIS OWN "THANG",why must he go keapo WHAT I TALK ABOUT WITH MY FRIENDS about OUR thing,can't he just understand that "ITS NON OF HIS FUCKING BUSINESS",i wish i can bleach his face with clorox. *sigh,sick pathetic lifeless son of a bitch this days.

so test 1 timetable been given today,we,the CS only have one test. *jump*. i am having my English test tomorrow..yikes,my third attempt,i should feel sorry for myself. Today is pretty tiring,meet up with my old mates,miss them so much,i am in the most fucked up mood now due to something.please just understand me for once,for ONCE,PLEASE!i feel drowned. how will you feel when people keep on accusing you doing something you didn't do again and again.timr and time,i get sick okay,that's how we ended up this way,i hate fights.why must we fight and i am always the end up crying,who want a relationship with lots of teardrops.long-distance isn't a problem for us,we made it through 18 months so that ain't a problem.as time pass by,people change,yes i admit i change,alot since i go back to school. he should know how i get fucked up by my own school life.there are no points of me to explain and i don't think i need to explain anything anymore because YOU always go with your thought,yout thought that is out of earth,which you assume some might be true,God knows everything,perhaps God will tell you everything,God will let you know everything.DON'T TRY TO FIX THINGS.let things go with the flow can't you??the more you fix,the more you fucked things up,and i think PEOPLE WHO DON'T KNOW ANYTHING,PLEASE STAY A FUCK AWAY FROM THIS FUCKING MATTER,people,you are not helping but FUCKING THINGS UP!i am sick of everything already.I WANT TO BE ALONE,A-L-O-N-E!FUCK IT PEOPLE!!can't you undertsand is it?I NEED TIME OF MY OWN,we have one weeks of straight fights,HE IS THE ONE WHO LEFT ME and THIS IS MY DECISION, *fuck off people..I KNOW HOW TO HANDLE MY OWN LIFE.

I have my own reasons,i am sick of everything.for all that i lost,i don't mind anymore.i think how i feel is more important.

when he walks out my way

2009-10-19T18:55:00.003+08:00

Eid mubarak@college

eid has come to an end,so yeah,so far,this is the best eid ever,celebrating with friends.college has been really frustrating,very!i have problems with 2 subjects,perhaps i just can't be bothered to study about stuffs with numbers.its been a long time since i tuck in early,its always 3am or maybe 2.30 am and i end up being a sleepyhead at school.right.this feeling is not right,i am not used to how things are now,usually every morning,i will have to miss-call him and now i don't need to.usually at the most boring time in college,i have someone to text with but now,i can even go to college without my phone bieng silent,no one will text me,i am so pathetic and i am not used to it but then i am trying and now its been better. i am not eager for anyone elses,i don't feel like i wanna fall in love again,friends and close friends are alright,but then when it comes to relationship,imma go think twice,for the time being,i am being this single.i just want to pass my exams and that's all. so as you all know,my presenation is about rockband and i score only 80%,well yeah i know i should be satisfied but then i know i can do better than that.my lesson is,never do last minute work.i have no idea what to blog about,well except the fact that i spend hours doing gates,and the circuits,really hate em!!!
for some reasons.we only have one test for phase test one,awesome?i know!!
so yeah,i am quite blanl,well everyday is the same..so yeah imma gonna upload pictures of eid at college and the other will be picture during last saturday♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

end (:

a picture.

2009-10-17T18:03:00.002+08:00

i had a great time today. we,the whole CS'A' had lunch at apis(thanks alot) and along with some teachers.So the other day,i asked pjul if he would go with me and he agreed,so i took hasz and tina along with me (to avoid from gossips),thanks girls,i love you both!after having a horrible presentation about "my fav activity" which is "rockband",quite odd for a girl but then hell yeah!so my presentation was HORRIBLE,don't wanna talk much about how horrible was it. I am glad that everything was alright,no awkward thingy and so on.so talking about lunch,the food!IT TASTE LIKE HEAVEN!apis's parents is the best cook!they should open a restaurant man,SERIOUSLY. didn't eat much there,but then i think i had lots of rice there,my dad didn't know that i wont be going home so he called me and ask me if i need a ride home (haha),as usual,use THE VAINERS will keep on taking pictures and so on.we had a great time.the pictures will be uploaded to facebook when our lovely teacher upload them.went back to college around 1+++++ and then fell down..this was the stupid part which was observe by tina and a senior of mine.i hurt my finger and my leg :(.

so i will steal some pictures from facebook after they are uploaded right? ;D

motionless

2009-10-16T23:13:00.002+08:00

this is the update so yeah ^^.
so my day,never been better lo. *sighsigh..shit happens,life sucks.ROCK AND ROLL!
so as far as i am concern,school life will fucked up pretty soon,never mind,i will just leave my "SCHOOL-STALKER" do "HIS" job by keep on stalking me ;D,sick kids!i know!perhaps he just find me pretty damn interesting that he just couldn't stop being such a pain in my ass!so keep kissing my ass okay,you are just a piece of shit for me and never the less a fly around my shit.so sorry for you.boy,you should start keeping track of your own life rather than shitting mine.

so i am feeling pretty lazy for school saturday, well two days of holiday,so you can imagine.all the staffs have convo at BSB so we were given holiday xD which i spend it with the PMB people *sigh i was pretty worry for their history paper but then after a while i feel good after i knew Sultan Abdul Mumin came out ;')

i have presentation and i am not done with it,this is hard "my fav activity" well whatelse do i like except for talking with kina,playing rockband and then crapping shit,sleeping!damn it :(

so its friday,wake up quite early by my sis.*sigh..done showering and everything then went to DST to pay bill for mamy then go all the way to KB to bank..damn it,the weather is so HOT!damn it!went to soonlee for a while well batah :[ mumy did her shopping and i was pretty hungry. darn it.still i haven't got the chance 2 trim my hair =( i promised kina that i am going to grow em long with her but then i wll straighten them when its a bit long cause of split end and wavy-ness

i am pretty tired of trying to care and trying to fix things,i always screw things up. *sigh
it was just a lost

okay i wanna gi continue get fucked up

you give me hell

2009-10-15T09:48:00.002+08:00

i will be a little bit emotional here so yeah.

YESTERDAY WAS HELL!!H-E-L-L!!!!! THIS STUPID AWKWARD FEELINGS!!SCREW IT!DAMN!!!!!!!ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AKU SASAK BERABESSS!!!BANAR!!I WAS FEELING SO DOWN AND FUCKED UP!!

DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

I HATE IT
I SCREW THINGS UP!

damn :'(

its done and i am ready sto start a new route

2009-10-13T18:20:00.003+08:00

pretty obvious,i feel myself again,things are settle,i am glad..we are friends and besides its just a small matter though. anyway..school is totally amazing today..its like my laugh-out-loud day. my girls have any lame jokes to make me go HAHA esp the "liang moi" joke..i am happy today,like very..NO NOT because of the meeting session i had with my friends, but because of break where i have my LOL moment. Came to school quite early, went off to admin with my girls.i didn't eat anything the whole thing,the food "kurang rasa" (masiang,my cuz say cnt say nda nyaman,so yeah its kurang rsa),was supposed to meet khalis to give his work but then he was too busy puffing,but then still he doesn't turn it down and managed to spare a lil' while for the sake of his test. ICS was i don't know,perhaps i was too busy laughing for the "liang moi" jokes that i cannot concentrate on the logic gates.dayum!my point is,i really hate the circuit and stuff,it reminds me off physics. noon,i bought lots of shirt,cost me 200+ =z spend all my allowance on it.damn!have to start saving again.heard KFC burnt down..awwwww :( :( :( :( nvm,i still have RMS♥ there will be no school for mkjb-ians on Thursday,be jealous people!be VERY jealous ;D i guess i will be going out to trim my hair.ahh..i am back xD i am having openh house at miss Baby's crib this Friday and saturday noon at apis's..hmm..anyone wanna accompany me this saturday =/

off to shower ;D

shawtyyy

2009-10-12T23:53:00.003+08:00

unfortunately,today didn't turn out to be so damn well.i wont say its the worst day cause everyday,there's something that makes me smile,my friends it is. shakina,thanks for everything,you helped me alot today.ily babe,and no worries.i WONT bail out no matter how long it takes,this feeling is real.thanks fiona for defending me,thanks sar for crying with me.thanks zatil for the hugs.thanks to meichen who have my back and cheer me up. thanks to razee for all the advices,thanks to lee for making me feel better,thanks to khalis for encouraging me. yes, I might freak people out,but no worries people, i am fine,this is just typical me,i scream when i see insects and anything.my heart is fragile,don't break it. it seems like a jokes to you people,but it hurts my feeling and it breaks others heart to see me pouring,and this is why people always say "no offense" before they offense people,indeed i have never mess with your crowd and why would you mess with mine?even if you never have the intention to do so,you should have known my tight circle better before messing.

my morning session is fine,a perfect morning session..nothing to brag about.there are always things that keep me alive,GOSSIPS!kinna cheer me up,keep me thinking postives although she brought me badnews.i am fine babe,i wont bail out,this is a promise!

so reached home at 5,i need to cool my puffy eyes cause i don't wanna add more problems at home so yeah my parents don't know about it.after doing somework then i showered, and ah relax,collect all this history notes that need to be given to gAlai tomorrow,dinner and start chatting with meichen till now,webcammed for a long-long time..then i update shakina with things she should know and there is when she turns emotional.she really hates to see me cry,that's it.even she is younger than me,i am the one who cries more often than her. then text khalis for revison thank God the weather was too hot that he can't stand the heat so decide to take em' tomorrow. so will have lots of paper around me tomorrow -.-'

took lots and lots of advice from Lee and Razee,Razee always has the best advice and knows what i should and shouldn't do,now that he is not mine,he is always by my side..ALWAYS i tell you!always and forever ;D

"there's something going between us that you don't know"

"its over now,now its time for revenge,revenge is sweet" isn't this the sweetest thing on earth♥

last texts

2009-10-12T15:15:00.003+08:00

i found this old pic from shakina's old post.
i love her to bits.
from stranger,to friend to best friend.

anyone would die for a bestfriend like her.

GOODLUCK FOR YOUR EXAM BABE..

we rockband together after your exam.with ;D

people of my life.

2009-10-11T23:11:00.005+08:00

My all time fav.my halflife ;D

my everyday happy pills

inded,they are my everyday pills. ;D

lastly,

i miss you babe :'( :'( ,happy birthday darlingg

lets end this with

P/S : kina,i am a scary cat :z

p-p/s: i have more pic of people of my life to upload,next post ;D

underneath the stars

2009-10-11T01:50:00.002+08:00

the above shot was taken in our 1st day of Eid celebration at school.thanks to all the shutterbugs,i have lots of candids and thank God its nice,well for me. at last, all 3 assignments are down! i should start studying for phase test 1,*sigh, i have a hard-hard time doing ICS,text a friend up and asked help for Intro and Conclusion.now that its done,i feel so good!parents are away to Tatau,*sigh.i am tired already,i am not feeling well..my tummy hurts >.<

goodluck to my dearfriends on their PMB ;D. i pray to God all of you pass with flying colors,i mean it <3

P.S : Shakina J.I need to update you like SERIOUS UPDATE!! i have STORIES okay! you will be ashocked

as far as you are concern

2009-10-08T23:34:00.002+08:00

so,the eid celebration was awesome..i had a VERY great time,i try real hard to enjoy myself despite the fact that my heart was torn into zillion pieces, friends around me cheer me up.people,this is going to be a VERY long post.so yeah,take a coffee so you don't fall asleep

so the first eid was celebrated with dramas,singing, and dancing which i think the best were of course CS,they rock the stage then MME has the most funniest dramas which was awesome too others are super too.great show people!GREAT SHOW.then we had open sections at FWE,EEE & Foyer but then i only visit but not eating..didin't feel like it though..so went to PLE and dance my stress off and ahh,stress release eh,people there are so out-going and we were all dancing like there's no tomorrow which i regred for not going there today(more on that later).when i reached home all i want is just drop down and sleep but still i have to do a little bit of ICS,not little but MANY!

then second day of eid celebration at school was MORE AWESOME,i wonder how many candids they are and how ugly they are..omg.i don't even wanna think about it.*sighsighsigh.my leg was injured due to too much heels,so early we had to clean the outside of CITD since we have open section in the afternoon,i feel like helping out so i did with zatil,stomach starts to growl around 10 so i msg someone in MME to ask about the open-section,after it was confirmed..drag pjul along with me which he had to stopped every 15 mins cause i have to fix my shoe..tsktsktsktsk.the soto there was AWESOME,its NICE,like HEAVEN..bumped into afiq and lost him in 5 mins that i have to keep searching for that dude cause our hangging out plan in the afternoon was canceled.on my way to PLE,a teacher asked me to pose for his camera as he wanted to try and check so i agreed..took a picture,next to a notice board with the sign "SHR"..i could imagine how horrible i look,then i went to PLE after a while to meet my cuzzy♥ was supposed to go dance-dance with her but then i walked back when my friends arrive,chillax for a little while around CITD,took few,well lots of pictures (which can be founf in fb).then i can't wait to go home to CHANGE and ahh my feet get to rest.the first thing i did when i was in the car was shake my heels off. =.= so,afternoon i went to school in purple,bumped into afiq and wali and talked about afiq's allowance(cause they have 94 cents ;p),went back to class then off to hall for the tahlil.was supposed to sit at the back but the BKP move us to the front which i was so sad because *sigh.after the tahlil,it was the open section for Marine,CITD and lib. so i was the "penyambut tetamu",my leg hurts but it was FUN.i finally talked t someone whom i refuse to talk to because i was nice today,took pictures of some lovebirds,the situation which can all be found in facebook..i get bored standing so i just collect all the empty plates and threw em' away,which someone took a pic of me,which was HORRIBLE!pfft,you can imagine how many candid,all camera was snapping everywhere..after taking few well lots of pic at CITD,my mates decide to bump to marine..we did but sadly there were no food :(,i think i took few pictures there.well i took pictures everywhere,god knows who i took it with but then lalala just wait and see in facebook. >.<

since the food was finished earlier there,we went to lib and eat and the food taste like heaven.make some new friends there and took some pictures *again,i know.but this time with my bestfriend since primary school.. >.< ,so you can see i had a great-great-GREAT time ;D
hang around LT and took some pictures again-again-again and again..just check em' out at FB.
FB is our college's top social network,so yeah do the math...

then my cousin told me something which makes me regred for not going to PLE :'( i told her i hate her diam2,no bah,i love you bah darling cuzzie ;D ;D *hugshugshugs.

so after i shaked my heels off,i saw 3 injuries.scary?yes!*sigh,who cares.beauty comes first :8)

i went out not long after i got back then when i got home and log in to my msn.someone told me something which fucking piss me off..so this is how it goes

so i now know who the spammer is,i couldn't identify critics as him/her cause IT happens to be a SHEMALE ;D well shemale for spamming my blog,2 years if blogging,a GUY spammed me,if it doesn't make him a shemale then tell me if you have something better!!well a simple definition will be PATHETIC,hating me doesn't draw my attention okay,only my friends draw my attention and i don't even think you have the thing to draw mine. you called me a bitch and NOW I SHOW YOU ONE! god knows why they hate me,as if i did something to them.I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU PEOPLE!WAKE UP PEOPLE!WAKE UP!i don't know you peeps,its you guys who can't stop smilling and laugh loudly on walkway,NOT ME!why one earth do you hate people for NO reason.OHH JEALOUSY could be the answer..
*mun ganya sal laki2,asak plg kau.nda jua ku kan ambil!

sooooo..the answer to "what happen to ur msn nick" "what happen to ur relationship status"..
now i tell you people why.
yes,we broke up..for some private reason WHICH I WONT TELL ANYONE NO MATTER who..this is the problem between me and zee which i believe we will settle it soon.just because he/me is single,that doesn't make us available. TITIK..no more questions.

hari raya at college

2009-10-07T22:22:00.003+08:00

incase anyone is wondering..this is how crappy i look on the afternoon session of raya at school..you think?HAHA

we drive tonight.

2009-10-06T15:36:00.002+08:00

college is so doom today,we didn't do anything AT ALL,as in we come to school and do NOTHING,well except for talking,laughing,listening to them practicing singing and i am so pathetic. i just couldn't stop smiling and my heart beat just can't beat any faster.damn it.things at college are getting better,i am glad and and *grins. I am nervous,i can't think properly,my laptop broke down earlier in the noon cause god knows why,pfft,i almost cry,i feel so pathetic.so,we are going to have this hari raya thingy going around in college,i am looking forward to it cause i feel like capturing thang~AHHH,damn i can't help it.i really love the to do notes,so amazing.

you make my heart skip a beat with your smile.

kiss me and hold me tight

2009-10-05T18:07:00.002+08:00

frustration arise when boredom attacks,i feel like sleeping.after i due my programming assignments, i feel like i just won a $50 from a lottery,i feel very good but then i still have computer system assignment to do but i think we are all too lazy and busy to even bother it besides its only research,copy,paste,edit.today,its another Monday again,glad that i didn't have Monday blues today. college has been treating me nice. i haven't do alot for the pass few days BUT i have been sleeping less,i should claim sleeping hours from my programming instructor. I just had my english oral just now,it was totally easy,its ALWAYS the written paper that makes me flunk,god i hate summary :( . this week wont have much of studies but then plenty of pictures are to be uploaded to facebook cause we will be having hari raya celbration at school,its gonna be fun and kick-ass,well lets hope,i have evil thought in mind about the perfomance,but to be a good girl,i will just dream of it and let me laugh in my sleep. so i think i have to start studying since my O is near and my phase test,i might start next week or perhaps next-next.my head is spinning right now,the examination waiting place is so damn hot and i think i smell durian or was it just me? woke up real early today because i have to wake popok up cause he is going to play badminton,which i knew from the start its going to be canceled.i love you POK!

TODAY,all of a sudden,i was enjoying ugama lesson,we were learning about nikah *which aku iski about it for some reasons,so i start to knew alot of stuff and i ask stuff that i want to know,the stuff i wanna know is like erm,young marriage and stuff and its totally uncool.getting married is so uncool,cause according to him (ustaz 'something'),you have to follow whatever your husband told you to.well,this are few general knowledge that i wish to know though and i know and i promise that I DONT WANT TO MARRY AT A YOUNG AGE!NO.NO.NO.NO.NO.even if i have to,i might as well just jump off a bridge and die.i am NOT offending anyone,i have schoolmate who have experienced this and i bumped into her on my way back from oral,felt sorry for her though that's her happiness.ENJOY LIFE WHILE YOU CAN!seriously (:

garghh,i have t eat my dinner,finish my number system,re-draw my logic-gates,finish math,do assignment =.=

a torture that last 3 nights

2009-10-02T21:28:00.002+08:00

screw it!my mozilla crashed while i was blogging,*sigh.don't you feel sorry for me?my days been down-down-down-down,yes baby,down-down-down-down.i love that song okay?my tumblr is fill with spider-web..grr.i should go tumblr-ing too.the last time i post there was June.HAHAH pathetic?no..no~i miss you 701

i don't need to fight to prove i am right

2009-09-29T22:42:00.002+08:00

i am having a really hard time now, i drop-dead on my bed and cried like a baby around evening,the time is ticking,tick-tock. i took a little nap soon after that just to keep myself alive.my exam are really coming up,i must studies,straight merit,here i come.i just made coffer for myself and feel like throwing them out now, i skipped dinner,relax is the last thing i could think about now,its eleven,i wont be sleeping early tonight,must work on my assignments *sigh

HAHA LOSER!

2009-09-29T14:15:00.002+08:00

check em' out.HAHA LOSER..
kira kau kan sarcastic lah tue ah..haha baie,sama skulah sdh tue.kau pikir aku stupid?aku buleh check IP BAH idiot. ;D ahhaha eh eh eh eh eh try saying to IN FRONT OF MY FACE..hahah baie..kan ucp urg pun mau tersindir2 kah..hahah whoever u are,pls dont be so stupid while spamming mu blog,sandi kau krg ;D

chow~LOSER

i go there for my education

2009-09-29T00:06:00.002+08:00

there you go,another "to-do". first day was totally fine until my GC accused me doing something i didn't do,try standing in my shoe,you will know how fucked-up i feel. i was asking her if she could extend the due date for our programming assignment cause i know all of us have hard time doing it. she accused me going online while common skill where i was talking about my assignments with 2 of my friends, what is her prove that i am online? there wasn't any internet connection in our class,how on earth can i go online?can she think?i think she has a problem with me,ever since interview and what so ever, she was laughing at my answers although how silly it might sound that time but what is her right to laugh at my answers. people are so right about her. i was asking her to check my coding that day,i know its wrong,all she said was "there's a way doing that but not this, a simpler way". is that the best ans she could give where other instructors are so very concern about us,helping us out in all our tutorials, she is mad cause we ask the other IPG instructor about the assignment,thats because she don't answer our question at all,why would we bother about asking her any more shits? i wouldn't be this piss of if she didn't accused me! i was literally very tired and she makes me cranky! the good part is that i score dist for my SA class test and practical,praise the Lord.

as pathetic as i might sound,i was having dinner alone around 7.30 when the electricty went off,well,i am very afraid off the dark like VERYY,i rush out of the kitchen,trying to figure my own way to go to the living room,i try to grab a lighter but couldn't reach it,my parents came and save the day ;p i was sleeping through out the black out,i left my dinner on the kitchen table,i was sleeping on the couch and letting the mosquitoes suck my blood. i thought i was dreaming about the "broom-broom" sound made my some sports cars and i heard my neighbor talking so loudly (the door was opened),right, i wasn't dreaming,its real, they were fighting in the dark,they look like some old nazi-punks kids or gensgster on the street,people talking so loudly,4-6 cars coming into our simpang every five minutes,so yeah you can picture the chaos.as usual,i will be the kaypoh,i will listen to every details of their fights,my parents were outside,they were worried about our safety cause one of the "kids" have samurai?my parents were outside with the right-side neighbor talking about how much more worst the fight could go to.i went to my room,opened my window,i could still hear them,despite the fact that it was so hot,dark and itchy,i could still sleep,well i was too tired.the electricty came back to life after three hours,longest in our 1 year record,i went and continue my dinner when the electricity came back and realise i got lots of mosquitoes bite.ahh..
now,the problem is..

(my programming assignment)

flow chart is so hard,i can't figure a shit out of it.*sigh

i have problem definition to do and ohh,also my algorithm (which i was supposed to do just now but there was no electricty and my laptop was out off batt)

my introduction was such a crap!

how much more ink will i need to print a BLACK output screen?!?

my computer system on the other hand,ohh HOLY SHIT,i havent start anything yet,but that could be done in 3 days cause its only a matter of copy and paste.

goodnight. ;D

first day.

2009-09-28T13:45:00.002+08:00

i guess everyone have a hard time waking cause i know i did. i was sick last night,end up throwing up this morning with empty stomach,so you could have a picture how awful was it!I'm having my lunch break,my friends haven't arrived,they usually arrive around 1:50 or something like that.ugh,i really HATE having mensuration cause my tummy gonna hurts so bad,i have difficulty standing up for a long time and i become lazier. i really feel like sleeping,thank godness people are talking in the class,that could keep me awake,so first day is still first day.nothing much,well except for the fact that i found out how nice the school's pangang is ;D I wonder where my boyfriend us,i hope dst feel sorry for me,my phone got bar!darn it!i shouldn't use prima cause i know i am not that wise.ugh!i still have another afternoon session to go,i cant wait to go home and kiss my bed with my ass.i am sleepy.i have assignments and i am worry about my ink,you see,the problem with my programming is that our output screen is BLACK and we can't change that.pfft..very sorry for us?we have to spend 20+ on 1 ink,just imagine how much we need for 1 assignments,thank god we are given allowance.

class starts in 8 mins ;D

update more soon

look for the rainbow

2009-09-27T16:59:00.003+08:00

i found this blog with cute little images while blog hopping, all those cute little images are with messages in it,cute?cute?just say yes. so school re-opens tomorrow?excited?umm..little?nyeh. i haven't finish my assignment,well on the bright side,m done with coding which is the hardest for me.so i woke up pretty late today because of my inconsiderate neighbor who live 3 blocks away was having an open-house till 2am with his music (OLD music,i must add) and end up with fights,police came thrice which is so humiliating for our neighborhood. I am really tired,ahh holiday have come to an end,i must sleep real early tonight,get to see my babyfruit for a little while,so smart *th karang ;p * jk,yeah really smart,me love.
gaghh.this period is such a pain in the ass,my stomach hurts..i want my babyfruit :(

shop.shop

2009-09-25T19:44:00.005+08:00

(MY RETARDED TIRED FACE)

as mentioned,i went to miri.it was fun,went there with my sis,avril and my aunt.i was so damn tired,that my eyes are real heavy now while posting this,i feel very greatful all of a sudden.holiday os over soon.so yeah overall miri was fun,funny,tiring but still on the dark side,i couldn't make it to my baby's open house.i am sorry baby,i will come next year..i love you babyfruit,i know he wont be mad,well only upset i guess,but then a kiss will always make it better ryte babyfruit?i love you deep,deep,deep,deep.D E E P!

above and below are the stuffs i got from miri for very reasonable price,it cost the same,in brunei and miri as in they have the same price.as in same RM and BND~cute right?i know..i spend only 20BND in miri,that's because i try not to enter rage..rage seduce me and my boyfriend alot.

the other shopping day with mummy and dady at BSB (Monday) ♥

this is what i got from Bandar the other day,i got 2 new pairs of shed,a jeans(dad insist to buy it for me), a very pretty butterfly type blouse and a plain white evening dress,well..i got heels but then no pictures of the sexy heels ;D

i chose hello kitty because I HAVE NO CHOICE and it matches my phone,my mum said ok then me *smile

*good night..
a nice day is waiting ;D

if you need time then i will go away

2009-09-25T05:30:00.002+08:00

am i okay?i hope.i have 3 person listening to me,kinna (of course),sap (my sisbro from sec.school) and sab (a very good listener).ohh i am so pathetic,i cried for more than 3 hours..there are reasons behing it,well first is of course because i am so pathetic and i think i alredy have enough,i am being blamed enough,i guess i am never lucky in love,you can ask people around me.(i'm cool now) then,i have been having a rather crappy day i just realised that clock is ticking quite fast,school is reopening soon.so its gonna be sems2 where i have to due 3 assignments (diff due date though) and i have an olevel exam ahead me.i am feeling so so so so so damn depressed now,i know there are people having bigger problems than me,but this is big enough to drive me to nuts..ohh guess what.i havent done my programming assignment at all,i have tried determine myself to do my work and not to go out,damn,fuck!i must swear this time,i know how i want to take things easy but programming is not one easy shit.you can imagine,i am blur with the coding and oh guess what I END UP CRYING LIKE A CRY BABY.i have a problem to think about and then another one coming and ohh..i guess i will try to hantam my ics assignment,or maybe i should see the instructor on the first day cause i dont know what to do.now,i remember that i have to type some letter for the school to let them know that i have to sit for Os soon and ohh to have the "permission granted with allowance".talking about allowance,where's our allowance,thank God i still have my first untouched,still a virgin like i told a friend of mine.dont get ashocked,the allowace are being safe for some reasons. i cried cause of my programming,i staed up late night studying for my class-test,ohh yes because i want to aim the best and keep my promise towards my parents,to strike for the best,i think i am falling soon,i couldn't take it anymore,well because i have one of the deadly sins running in my veins,envy that is,i hate to see peopke doing better than me BUT on the bright side,that determines me to work hard,okay.i cried the hardest just now,so far,it has been the hardest,because thie crying thing wouldn't stop,i can't sleep,its okay..m fine.m a robot,i dont sleep.so yeah i still have to head of to miri as a favour bla3..ohh no,dont worry the worst thing that would happen later is that my head will be spinning like hell,damn i forgot to collect my ic,i must try real hard to wake up saturday morning,well if only they are open.damn.i dont want to look at the mirror,i dont wanna look at my stupid eyes,do you realize that i sound so emo now?who cares..anyway,i think i should sleep soon.after i drink plenty plenty of water because i have sore throat every morning,ohh no worries,i havent have nice sleep since.umm..i dont know. *sigh

i don't think i can sleep
i think i should not cry anymore.
i think i should stop

good day people

karma is the real bitch!

2009-09-24T02:57:00.004+08:00

i miss you so much baby..thank you for being my partner in crime babyfruit.
well...because of the fact that i been back stabbed,betrayed by people i used to trust,then there's only ONE girlfriend in my life.Shakina J it is,there's no others i could trust except for her.she is the one who i could trust like no others(except for razee who knows EVERYTHING),perhaps some people might know some secrets of mine,but then trust me,kinna knows everything.holidays have been okay. its hard for me to sleep this few days but real easy to wake up.i regret for being nice to people but when that person have someone better than you,you got ditched.i shouldnt be nice to anyone,wait i mean "very" nice. i am so stupid for falling into people's trap easily,letting people take advantage of me.having razee by my side,i am greatful already. he is the one who i can turn to when SHIT happens to me,when something real bad happened and when i need an ear to listen,a shoulder to cry on and so on. I am afraid of not having him by myside,everyday,all i ever want is razee,razee,talk with him..told him about shit that happens around me,he will never fail to make me feel at the best.we broke up and got together,that's a challenge in life.there are even people who try real hard to make razee dislike me and dump me,still sorry,love is strong around here,you should have smell it before messing. there's this little shit that just happened,OF COURSE i wont and WILL NEVER mention em here.i have somewhere private.catch me there,ONLY IF you can..

razee.baby i miss you..
i love you zee.hell much!! (:
there's nothing that can break us apart,NOTHING!!

dont take advantage of people.
dont shit about people who have help you ALOT,

KARMA IS A REALLY MEAN BITCH.

no matter how much more perfect you are in people's eye,only god knows where you get the "info" from,only god knows who should have em' first,only god knows who have crossed the line. no matter how often you get to be with your love one,god is watching. i am just too stupid on trusting that you gonna be nice to me,but in reality,you hate me to bit for what i had done to you..which you deserve because you have tried to screw me and boyfriend up although you fail.
i dont care if "people" gonna spread this word because they might think that this is meant for someone,reality check this is my blog and people,PLEASE stay away from this.this is the MISERY in life.yes,its for someone,someone who has no one that can acess to my blog.

p/s : i LOVE YOU FOREVER RAZEE

babyfruit, vous êtes le meilleur jamais.n'importe d'ami comment ces chienne et ces fils d'une chienne essaient de nous casser à part, pourtant nous restons toujours fort, je vous aime à jamais Razee

xoxo
L'

mama-do

2009-09-21T09:41:00.003+08:00

you wanna know who is my new fav beside the lady?
Pixie Lott is

Her voice is amazing!

well,i change my blog skin all of a sudden,it wont last long,i have a feeling that i will change another skin soon.the last time i blog was last Thursday,its been ages..i guess?no one reads anything here,well Friday was awesome,i went to Shakina's place.had my dinner there and went home around 8.then Saturday was double awesome...went to play bouncer and it was totally kick ass although i have many injuries,i elbowed people,i injured my left leg and it hurts to the max,well i can't walk properly,so picture it!played until mid night then went home,finished my gossip girl s1 then sleep till the sun burn my ass.was supposed to head off to bandar with my parents but then i think they feel like going some time this week,its a MUST for me to go.i must get a raybans with my own money.well,last night,i kinda cleaned my room cause i am kinda "nim",so yeah totally cleaned and move lots of stuff like,mt study desk is back to its original place.my hello kitty shelves is right next to my bed.the little thingy where i keeps all my books are moved.well,i been planning on moving it but wasn't expecting last night,i found my printer which print photos,like photo-photo and tried on them.love it!had a little conversation with mum and dad,it's about something which i shouldn't say it here cause i'm going to offense someone,well not technically someone,but then someone is going to spread this to another someone..get it?my parents is proud of me that i am not the "money sign" girl.that's all i can say.something happened last midnight?i am glad that it didn't burn my leg or well MY ASS!someone was playing fire-cracker outside and we were eating and watching it,all of a sudden,a rocket came,well they aimed wrongly and their fire-cracker just doesn't work,so it flew to my house instead and almost burn me.i freaked out man!damn it!i received tones of raya greeting though i don't celebrate but then yeah just read and leave it.so happy eid mubarak my dear friends,enjoy yours!its the season again.where all you can hear is "BOOM" "BOOM".pet society is making my computer lagg,i wonder why.i can't sleep,i woke up like few minutes back and i really need to sleep real bad,perhaps i'm hungry.i have to head off to some relatives house this week,i wonder what will my uncle say about my performance in college.hmm..he loves to blap bah.how much have i blog?long enough to bored the shit out of you?hmm..i feel like eating,ohh well i have to wake my sister up.

hmm my baby coming soon,i miss you ngek
p/s : no,i am NOT trying to copy the slogan "i love you bodoh" from radit and jani,i have original quality. ;p

p/s (ii); no offense but then people just love copying each other.

p/s (iii) : damn,it refers to SOMEONE,and please don't be so keapo..

you know you love me,yes its from gossip girl..so?i'm Lydia ,*another g.g ;p

loving you was a...

2009-09-17T22:59:00.002+08:00

still on holiday mood?i bet most of my friends are in their 'raya' mood.well i will start doing my SA assignment nextweek then a little bit of my programming.ah darn it!i am too busy with some stuff that i ditch my assignments,so this is again another Thursday.i sound so pathetic!really!i even feel pathetic!i am so damn pathetic!last night was horrible,i was expecting something else but something worst came out as the result.why?why?if only he could think from another way&side. *sigh. i have a bad feeling.something real bad or was it only me?well,maybe!I'm not going to work tomorrow cause imaa head of to shakina's.i am lazy,that's it.i just realise that i have an olevel english to sit for.omg!shouldn't i be doing my assignment now?i am thinking of nice cute pretty neat assignment,what's the point of rushing,night still young but then i have 2 assignments?what am i suppose to do?gargh!RMS is currently the top in my list for burgers!well.ugh..ohh mum told us that we might go to bandar sometime in this week.I WANT A RAY BAN!!FUCK!!ITS SO DAMN SEXY,not only the nerd one..but then sheds are sexy!i don't know if our school allowance is out yet all i know is that my first allowance is untouchable.none of it are touchable cause i have something in mind.i want to buy something myself.but then still thinking if its worth it.you know i am quite silly.i always thing that something is worth it at the first place but kinda regred at the end!garghh..typical me.you guys wanna see my phone for today..it says "0 MISSED CALLS" "0 TEXT MESSAGES REC". now you know what's the taste of pathetic!its okay then..imma chiillax for a bit or maybe play rockband for a while..
i am thinking of a new look?
ohh..i am keeping my hair long..but not the fringe,well i fringed my front hair last June..and cause my hair is thick,it kinda looks horrible now..so yeah imma chop-chop-chop..but then no way i am going to saloon this season,i hate squeezing with desperate people who only have their hair makeover once a year (: *no offense,i have friends who only get to do their hair once a year..so pathetic!
hmm..see what i need?
-a new member for faceshop (:
-a mac kitty (i been on ebay..its cheap there but i scared faulty"
-ray ban!ray ban!so smexy!!
- a break!!

my biggest regret.

2009-09-14T18:28:00.003+08:00

while waiting for my baby to finish sungkai,i might as well blog,this is school holiday yes?not much of a holiday to me!foes everywhere around me,i guess i will keep myself to me.making me feel bad by being sarcastic,don't continue doing that,you gonna regret!i was too lazy to blog,there are lots of thing that i wanna complain and shit around here but people people people,mouth mouth mouth.you know how some people have some LOW LEVEL of brain likes to act as if she knows everything and start talking shit about your post?tsk!tsk!I'm tired already of being quiet when people are being sarcastic.people get over your head!ohh my first allowance is still a virgin,i love it mahn,i dont feel like using it first.my days been well average i must say.i don't have much outings but i have my lovely people around me.no matter how SOME people hate me,i still have my bestiieee shakinaa banana around for me,a place for me to tell all those shits after having a terrible horrible day in college. my lovely girlfriend meichen who help me through all the shit in school,taking me out for lunch,jam with me.her lovely brother masiang who goes wild with us.we rock two afternoon in a row and a thursday night! nasi-lemak on the rock (story behind the name). and of courseMY BABY BOOOO♥ who is always there for me no matter what happens,who never stop loving me,who always brings me up when i am way down,i love you more and more each sec baby!so who says i need them to keep my head up high?i have my tight circle which never breaks me a part!i might cut my fringe soon,at first i thought about starightened my hair but then nyeh,i got better plan.perhaps i will update more this holidays,well lets just wait and see.my love life is doing well,my baby loves me and i love him.tehee.well my dad broke into my facebook and he was like "hey,i check out your facebook" and i was like "ohh okay *make the face*" well,techinically he saw "in a relationship with Muhamad Razee" tehee,he didn't say anything about that though,thank god!i have so many pictures to upload,compress and so on.i should update more and more and MOREE even i don't have intresting stuff to tell like outings and stuff but then i might bang in around shakina some time this week if i am not working,well people having PMB=headache!!! ahah SERIOUSLY,i wanna help kina with her malay since i am quite okay in it then perhaps she could help me for my english olevel since her english is better than mine..ahh..i need to shower..should stop posting

p/s BABY I LOVE YOU!!!WHAT'S SWEETER THAN SWEET?yes you baby!!!*hugs

come back to me its almost easy.

2009-09-08T00:01:00.003+08:00

wasabi'
i had a great weekend,how bout you?two party straight man?!can you feel the rock?the picture above can explain all,i had a great time.i love holidays well,i don't hate going to school,i only hate meeting people.no matter how much they dislike me,i am doing all good myself,my point is studying.the picture reminds me of razee.not long after i took that pic,i had a great-great time with him.now,my body hurts and it feels like its gonna break apart,that's cause i had a great bouncer time last Sunday.it was Dylan advanced party,I played the bouncer a bit late cause I need to arrange the games for those freaky kids(Cause they are big),I had a crazy night,crazy laughing moment..I played from 7+ till 1 in the morning.crazy much.now,i can't wait for sems1 break, 2 assignment in hand and i haven't finish anything perhaps don't wanna rush it cause i don't like rushy work.my body was so damn freaking itchy well maybe cause of the bouncer's water. i was kinda "nim" on Monday?I just feel like crying now.hmm how am i suppose to express this fucked-up situation?it seems to me my crab pose or you can say trademark is being erm manipulate?HAHA. i don't feel right,something is missing,my head is gonna burst,it hurts, its heavy,GOD!I need a full body check-up perhaps?

my baby is leaving today,he was here since Wed?he came over to my place then he went back :'( i miss him..i love him garghhhh..

tears dont fall.

2009-09-04T18:33:00.002+08:00

god,the last time i blog was Monday?haha funny,I was busy with my assignments,and of course MY BOYFRIEND!I am bored and now and I don't feel right so i might as well blog.I am tired for almost every day of my life.i did only ok for my programming although only 47% because i achieve one of my task,i am happy with it.Yesterday was great,met boyfriend during lunch and went to hospital for a little while.it was great to see him again!i miss him so bad.my parents are away,i am bored,wat shud i blog again?i might as well share pictures.MY ASSIGNMENT IS DRIVING ME INSANE!

miracles could happen

2009-08-31T16:25:00.002+08:00

Hello Monday,whoop~whoop~ I am not taking a nap,mum will be happy if she knows this.school was alright.The only thing that I will complain about is the weather,its so hot.I might meet my baby soon,it gives me a smile on my face,i miss him SO BADLY.I have a very cute t-shirt.Its from my auntie.So,since I slept late last night,I woke up late,I am tired,I was tired during maths and I enjoyed Ugama cause I learn new stuffs.We had software then lunch break,then continue our remaining software lesson,the shittiest stuff that happened today is MY PHONE IS OUT OF BATTERY,BOTH OF IT!I charged but my brother kinda unplugged it.so i have empty batt,my phone was off the whole day.went home late,waited with one of my friends,talk about urm,idk?random..the weather is H-O-T.i wanna shower

I LOVE YOU RAZEE ;D

you can run,but i will catch you

2009-08-30T23:52:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging.My reason will still be the same.I am just really busy with things around me.The last time I blog was Thursday,I got a last-minute test which i am not satisfied with it and I am not pleased with it.Its kinda silly for me,its our first programming class test,so its like from page 1 till 32 but our instructor only taught us till page 29,we gotta study the remains ourselves,don't you feel sorry for us?so far,this is the hardest thing for me.I find it hard to catch up and to understand it.I need people to teach me but not like how my instructor does(read from the book).The test was on Saturday,i was about to cry in the "LT",the paper was SO DAMN HARD,i can see all my classmates are struggling but the other group was so relax,lucky them!i been trying real hard on something,sooner or later this blog will have less shit in it.i learn something new on Saturday,its ignorance.its something good and something i should remember all the time.i remember when i have one senior keep bitching me,all i do was ignore her and now whenever i see her,its normal,she stop bitching me.i guess she got tired of bitching cause i been ditching her aside ;D

i been facing lots of social problems and i seek for advices from friends and family,i gonna use them!patience is all i need now.i have to learn that!don't blog about it cause i am afraid people will miss-understood and then make a big fuss and I just don't like chaos,i love peace

THE BEST THING IS
HAPPY 17th MONTHS baby,1 year,5 months been crazy in love with you.through thick and thin,up and down,we made it through.i love you

our town where love grow

2009-08-27T00:30:00.002+08:00

Its midnight,see,i am blogging again.now i am going to update with every free time i have.I should be very busy with assignments by now,but then hey,i am chilling which i know i am going to regret but then hey,i really need a break.i face computers more than i face the book.don't freak out when I am wearing spec some day.so,i just realized that I am lazy,well always.I need to paste some L&C papers and then copy the summary which I haven't finish copying from the board cause something is blocking me.I have maths which is going to drive me crazy.I have assignments,most of my girl-mates already did their introduction but then i am still at table of contents.I need to help zatil on the articles so yeah i am quite busy but why am I always in front of the Tv?August is coming to an end!darn it!Maybe I should start doing my assignment later at college,very lazy you know?so i went back from college around 2,the first thing i did was EAT!!my laptop is a little bit crapy till I have to uninstall 1 program.my laptop's media contol button is not working,the volume adjust by itself,it even mute by itself,I am going to netcom after college later afternoon.

WHAT'S WRONG WITH MY LAPTOP?
it mute by itself,this is irritating me!!please not now la if you wanna rosak,i need you so badly for assignment my dear laptop

its midnight,i should sleep or i will be yawning in ICS later

feeling so poor as ever,shivering,tummy growling.

2009-08-26T10:25:00.003+08:00

the first that I am going to mention is I AM HUNGRY,like seriously VERY hungry.sitting in crossed leg,wearing jacket doesn't help!

did i mention that I AM HUNGRY?yes,VERY HUNGRY.i had my breakfast earlier but because of this "cold-ness" my food digest so fast that i feel like fainting now!

whoop!people around are doing their assignment!I am typing so people might think I am doing assignment!haha i just can't be bothered to think right now.Language and Communication was so boring.Its so hard to stand my heavy eyes.Mdm.G is so boring,well she always is!she taught us to do summary with columns.fun?College's server is the crappiest shit on earth,i am DC-ed from the internet,yet I still can blog.I wanna eat!I wanna go out for lunch but then my parents are busy during lunch so i chose to stay back,I wanted to bring food but then I don't want some hoes start talking shit about me eating and so on..so I might as well be the good person,just stand the hunger.I just remember that i did bring water with me this morning!Imma move my place after i save this in notepad(since internet is piece of crap).I am really freezing.don't wanna spoil my own skin,its gonna be very dry le..

Dear God,show me the right path!

shit i have to uninstall my ares and limewire ;s
feeling so poor as ever,shivering,tummy growling.

ugly beast

2009-08-25T23:17:00.002+08:00

i changed my blog skin,please say its awesome! ;D
school was just fine,i will rate it a 4 out of 10.i had a stress reduction yesterday.I felt great after that,expressing what its being kept inside since the beginning of college life.Its quite annoying when even you yourself can't decide who to be close with.some are just so nice and innocent and some just have the "PLEASE HATE ME" sign on their fuckface!some times people just get on my nerves cause they are pain in the ass. Just because you don't feel like studying that time,it doesn't mean that you can start being the clown and disturbing people's concentration.For GOD SAKE,there are still other human around. I am not referring to any specific people, so PLEASE people FOR GOD SAKE(again) DON'T GET OFFENDED EASILY.

sometimes when you keep quite,people might think you are stupid,at times,the one who talks a lot are the one who use their brain less and YET i have some point which supports my line.watch more movie and you will know what i mean.

so,its the fasting month,i felt so sorry for my tummy,i had gastric yesterday and it was horrible.i really salute those who can stand a month doing that. i had my breakfast before i left for college,2 hours after that,my tummy starts growling.I will start complaining about it.when i reached home,my rice gonna be twice i usually had for lunch.
today was a little bit shitty,i was being mark late for SA,BECAUSE the clock in the class happens to be fast,so my teacher kinda follows it so yeah,and people must be thinking i am hanging around plant with my cousin.i was having a break lunch with zatil,well of course we didn't eat,just sitting on the bench waiting for the library to open cause we need name list for the articles.had a great laugh cause someone was trying to be a woman?went to perdana for a while just to check my slip and people saw me across the street.am i that easy to notice?small in size?
we have our first software assignment,i need my bro's help cause i am quite blank.pathetic?yes,VERY!another assignment gonna be on Thursday,programming and it scares the shit out of me!!!!!!so i finish only the cover page,like everyone else and then a little bit of my page one.i am lazy,that's it!

i am currently watching season 4 for how i met your mother,i finish season 3 in couple of days.i rec my result yesterday and its REALLY HORRIBLE,my parents didn't say a word about it,they want me to do it again so yeah.LAZY WAH!!!
didn't do anything at all,i cried and i fell aslepp.my sis went into my room around 6.3o and i thought it was wednesday already!then i eat NON-STOP!

i gotta go tuck in now,mum wants me to wake up early tomorrow =.='

2009-08-24T16:26:00.000+08:00

STRESS!!!